200413 ~ ♥

Hey bloggy,

Im in Sheffield atm! :)
It is a sunny af day!
I am so grateful for the weather cos its BEE-EWWW-TIFUL!
Sunny, blue skies, warm, bit of a breeze!
Like i said, BEAUTIFUL weather!
My weather app says that its 17 degrees atm!
WHICH IS GREATTT! :D
The apps pretty cool btw, just thought id say, CT introduced me to it! ^^
In HK its 25 degrees, i cant wait to go there!

So since yesterday, until Tuesday, imma be living inna house of 6 boys.
HAHA!
I feel like a mum.. I feel like im looking after 6 sons PAHAHA!
Speaking of that, i was meant to cook dinner for PS and i tonight but im not gonna be back for dinner i dont think ><"
AND IM HUNGRY AS WELL ><"
Guess im drinking onnan empty stomach tonight then..
The boys found out ive never been properly drunk as well so theyre trying to get me tipsy tonight and drunk on Monday when we go out clubbing ><"
Imma die arent i?
Hahaha this is gonna go and end so badly!

Errr.. My dad just called me and then cut me off, so i called him back and hes just put me on voicemail.
WHATS THE MEANING OF THIS FATHER? T_T
He doesnt know im in Sheffield atm..
Mega awks.
AND LMAO I JUST CHANGED MY KEYBOARD TO HINDI.
I STARTED TYPING AND ITS LIKE SQUIGGLES, I WAS LIKE WTF?! LOOOOOL
There isnt chinese! o.O
Im offended!

Anyways.. Back to english..
Although the weather is nice af, i am sat in the library with CH and his friend Matt :)
As you can see, i cant type his initials cos i dont actually know his surname..
Awks hahaha! ^^"
Im finding it kinda awks cos this is the library that TC goes to all the time, and im just like, AHH WHAT IF I SEE HIM T_T
There are so many asians here and everytime i see one outta the corner of my eye, im like OH NOOOOOO.
But then its never him PHEWWW!
Ahhh these keyboards confuse me cos the keys are in different places, i dont understand.
And i dont know if i should be blogging atm cos the keyboards really loud and you know how fast i type and yeahh D=
And so im making loads of noisee! ><"
I feel bad for my friends sat next to me cos theyre actually tryna work and im just loud af ><"

So anyways, i was just on Tumblr, cos im actually just here to hang out with them whilst they work, cos i have no work!
Well.. Thats a lie, i have a shit load of work, im just choosing not to do it cos im an idiot.
ANYWAYS, so i was on Tumblr, and i saw this picture, and i cant save it, so im just gonna link it! :D

http://deebeex.tumblr.com/post/48431542350/loveyourquotes

Okai.. I feel like i should tell you.. The reason im linking this is cos Im seeing TC later.
So in all fairness, it wouldnt matter if i saw him now in the library.. LOL ><;"
I am legitimately shitting myself..
I dont know what im gonna do, am i gonna cry?
I really hope i dont cry cos i would look stupid, i am done looking weak in front of him..
Ive looked weak in front of him so many times, so theres gotta be at least one time where i look stronger right?
It sucks though cos he knows imma pussyhole anyways..
The main reason im going to see him is cos i need answers to be able to get over him, or have any chance of moving on and not being forever alone cos i cant get over him..
And i just feel like i need to clear the air with him you know?
But hes being so blunt with me anyways, but apparently thats cos hes scared to talk to me..
WHY WOULD HE BE SCARED TO TALK TO ME?!
Surely the one whos been hurt should be the scared one, well, i AM the scared one, like i said, im shitting myself mannnn!
Ahhh shit, just remembered i cant cook PS dinner then!
Actually.. If im seeing TC at 5..
It wont take that long for us to talk, so il probably be back pretty soon, so i guess i can buy and make dinner before we predrink!
Anyways, tonight.. TC.. BLEHHH.
Its gonna be awk af.
*SIGHH*

Im going to a house party tonight full of chemistry students!
Imma feel like im inna room full of really, really smart people haha!
I always think maths and sceience students are so much smarter than arts students ><"
I feel so dumb when im with them LOOL
There they are doing experiments and then theres me writing about SHAKESPEARE.
Having said that, he is a legend and a hald and i love him loadssss!
That makes me sound like a geek and a half.
Anyways, a house party would help lemme drown my sorrows tonight after everything fails and goes badly with TC.
And he breaks me in every way possible all over again when he gives me the answers that ive wanted to get for nearly 11 months now..
Its weird how imma be in Sheffield on the 22nd..
Its like im supposed to be here to celebrate another monthiversary or something..
But obviously im not cos those dont exist for us anymore and im actually here to see PS and CH!
But yeah, its just weird thats all *sigh*
Like mega sighs..
Depressing life of mine *crying*

So yeah, if everything goes downhill tonight (which it probably will cos he has a nack for breaking my heart..)
Im probably gonna be hearing a lot of awkward silences, pauses, 'it was complex and you wouldnt have understood's, 'i just didnt love you anymore's
SO YEAH, imma have to drink my life away tonight!
Last night, i had 2 koppabergs just whilst watching The Hobbit (THOSE BOYS ARE BAD INFLUENCES)
AND I WENT BRIGHT RED LIKE AN UGLY TOMATO! T_T
This asian flush needs to sort itself out! LMAO!
The boys were like 'i cant believe you go so red' and im just like 'i know right, and i was completely sober as well!'
Facking hell T_T

Anyways bloggy, were leaving to go to the snooker championship (?) crucible place soon?
LOL I HAVE NO CLUE, im just going where the boys are going, cos otherwise imma be lost in Sheffield ><"
So yeahh, thats all i have to say for now, dont worry,  il blog again soon!
Damnn todays entrys been pretty long!

Over and OUTTTTTTTTTTTTT

♥