070712 ~ ♥

Was i just too blinded by my love for you that i didnt see the signs of our relationship ending?
Like, were we having bad times already?
Were things going downhill?
There were some days where we didnt talk that much cos we were both busy, but then, you'd be tired and id be a bit meh that we didnt talk at all that day, and you didnt stay up to talk..
Was that a sign that we were going downhill?
Would you have stayed up if you really loved me?
I dunno what to think :'(
But you promised you'd make things work if we weren't okai..
We promised each other that we wouldn't leave and that we would talk about things if things went wrong.
But then even if our relationship was going downhill, why would you tell me you loved me?
Why didnt you just stop telling me you loved me so id be prepared?
Why would you just leave?
How can you be so unfair?
Am i really just stupid and dumb?
Is that what i am?
You specifically said that this isn't anyones fault, are you covering up the fact that it is someone else's fault?
Do you have a new girl or something?
Do you have someone new that you like and thats why you're tying to emphasise the fact that its not anyones fault?
Is this what this is about? :/


I had a dream that nearly made me cry in real life when i woke up.
In my dream you wouldn't talk to me.
Finally i got you to speak and you said you broke up with me cos i put a picture up on Facebook.
Thats obviously silly, and not true, but damnnn, you not talking to me killed me.
And you were all like: 'you're lucky i even wanna be friends with you.' Mehhh :/
I guess you probably don't love me anymore in real life, and I'm probably just a girl you used to know..
But to me, you're still the first boy I've ever properly loved.
You're still a boy that i want to be with, but i won't stop you from not being with me.
Its not something that i have control of.
But it just hurts knowing that i went from everything to nothing.
You're probably having a whale of a frigging time in HK..
I dunno, i can just imagine you having loads of fun and not thinking about me :/
Ahhhhh well!
Are you worth all this painn?
I really wonder whether you're worth all my hurt and pain.
BLEHHSSSS.


我很爱你啊.
为什么你不知道我的心?
为什么你不知道我爱你怎么多?
可能有一日我会开心, 但是今日我很不开心啊.


Over and OUTTTTTTTTTT

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