Ummm... this is gonna sound really rude, but its true.
You know when youre brought up as a kid, your parents tell you to respect adults lalala.
And i do.
I respect adults to a point where its like, theyre flawless people.
I grew up with a mum who was strict and firm but very loving.
Wanting nothing but the best for me.
A dad who has always tried his hardest to give me what i want, however demanding i can be sometimes.
But they have never once stopped supporting me.
They give me ultimate support, which i think is really important.
Whether the matter be school, friends, or boys, they have always been here.
I think that by having these parents, theyve taught me that adults are worth respecting, that despite the times they shout at you and tell you off, they are worth your respect.
My family, not just my mum and dad, i mean, my uncles, aunties, grandparents, they are also people who i respect, they show me respect, help me whenever they can and GIMME FOOD :) haha :)
My nan favours boys over girls, typical chinese old person.
So, us girls, all us girl cousins, we respect her, but not in the same way as we do the others.
We respect her because we have to, not because we want to, theres a difference.
My best friend has two brothers.
Shes the girl in the middle.
Her big brother used to be in a bad place.
Yet she still cares so so much about him.
She looks up to him, as a little sister should do, but im sure she sometimes wonders what shes looking up to.
Her little brother, shes scared is following her footsteps.
Listening to their mum all the time, and having to struggle.
It must be really hard for her, watching someone turn into something that she hates being so much.
I cant say that i know what shes going through, i dont have any siblings, nor do my parents pressure me to a level that hers do.
But i know how hard it must be for her.
Back to the respect thing..
Now dont get me wrong, i have utmost respect for her parents and i think theyve raised an amazing child
But, i gotta ask myself, what am i and what is she respecting?
Cos whenever she texts me, saying how her mum made her cry, my heart breaks a bit.
My best friend, is crying because of the person who is meant to love her the most, yet sometimes i feel that she deserves so much more love.
Is that really mean?
In thinking that?
So following how my parents taught me, to respect adults, i would never disrespect her parents.
But it makes me doubt people.
How you can be like that to your own kid.
I think she feels so helpless sometimes, that she doesnt have a place in this world.
But truth is, everybody has a place in this world, no matter who you are.
She thinks that shes burdening us by crying, thats just who she is, and you cant change someones personality.
If they think that, then they think that...
Thats it, no going back.
You cant alter that.
But i wish she could understand that i would never ever judge her, or think any less of her just because she lets out her emotions.
God knows how many times shes had to hear and see me cry.
I see her smile, and i ask myself, is that real?
I love seeing my friends smile, its one of the best feelings in the world, because you know that the ones you love are happy.
But with her, even though she is my best friend, i gotta ask myself, whether shes really truly happy.
Its true that you can never know what someones thinking, especially when theyre so reserved, but sometimes i just wanna have her open up to me.
Im her best friend, if she cant trust me then whos she supposed to trust?
I completely understand that if she doesnt wanna tell me something, then she doesnt have to tell me, but she feels that she cant.
And thats whats really hard, because once you think that noone will understand you, thats where youre stuck.
KL and KL's dad, is practically my uncle.
Or maybe dad?
Seeing as were practically sisters.
Either way, hes a person who i respect a lot.
I think out of all my friends parents, hes the one i respect the most.
Not only because whenever i go to their house, he gives me food, haha :)
But because he is how a dad should be.
I dunno, obviously in families, there are always issues that outsiders know nothing about.
And i know that he gives KL pressure, that he isnt always supportive, but deep down, he wants whats best for her.
Thing is, with AS' mum, does she want the best for my friend or does she just want herself to be happy?
AS has a job, she studies so much, she gets along with her siblings and she is a responsible person.
How can her mum think that thats not enough?
Ahhh, i dont get people sometimes.
How can she not see how unhappy shes making my best friend?
Sorry if this seems protective and like rude of me.
Cos it really isnt my place to say, im not part of their family.
But i know that my best friend means enough to me for me to not want her to get hurt in any way at all.
Theres only so much pressure a person can take before they break, and when the breaking happens, its not gonna be pretty.
So however rude this post is, i hope it doesnt make her mad at me.
I just want her to be happy.
Argh.
Its hard, to be happy.
Like when youre a kid, you get bullied, and you go home crying, thinking that youve just encountered the worst thing in the world.
Yet now you go through something and its thousands of times worse.
Its like, you were just getting prepared for the future as a kid.
But i guess we just have to prepare ourselves for even more crap to come as we get older.
Cos it just seems to be getting harder and harder.
Over and OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
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