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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S6o3gv3w3g0

I'm sitting down here,
But hey you can't see me

Your words cut deeply,
They're just some other lies
I'm hiding from a distance,
I've got to pay the price
Defending all against it,
I really don't know why
You're obsessed with all my secrets,
You always make me cry
You seem to wanna hurt me
No matter what I do
I'm telling just a couple,
But somehow it gets to you
But I've learned to get revenge
And I swear you'll experience that some day

I'm sitting down here,
But hey you can't see me
Kinda invisible
You don't sense my stay
Not really hiding, not like a shadow
Just thought I would join you for one day
I'm sitting down here,
But hey you can't see me

I'm not trying to avoid you,
Just don't wanna hear your voice
When you call me up so often,
I don't really have a choice
You're talking like you know me
And wanna be my friend
But that's really too late now,
I won't try it once again
You may think that I'm loser,
But I don't really care
You may think that it's forgotten,
But you should be aware
Cause I've learned to get revenge
And I swear you'll experience that some day

I'm sitting down here,
But hey you can't see me
Kinda invisible
You don't sense my stay
Not really hiding, not like a shadow
Just thought I would join you for one day

I'm sitting down here,
But hey you can't see me
Kinda invisible
You don't sense my stay
Not really hiding, not like a shadow
But sure I wanna join you for one day

You seem to wanna hurt me
No matter what I do
I'm telling just a couple,
But somehow it gets to you
But I've learned to get revenge
And I swear you'll experience that some day

I'm sitting down here,
But hey you can't see me
Kinda invisible
You don't sense my stay
Not really hiding, not like a shadow
Just thought I would join you for one day.

Its nearly Christmass <3
Lets Celebrate and be happy =]

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I wanna say thank you for all the birthday wishes yesterdayy =]
I had an amazing day <3
Even though my inbox has over 200 emails from FB with people wishing me a happy birthday =]

I should be doing revision but i havent had the time..
Well, i say that, but i just cba.

I have more important things on my mind.
Stuff i cant forget.
It hurts to know that in addition to it all being over, it was all over in the worst possible way and that it still hurts.
Its over, but its still continuing, and has a chance to be even more over..
This so wont make sense to anyone but whateverr.

I wish i could stop myself feeling this way, feeling like this...
If i could, i really would.

I GOT MY NEW PHONE TODAY!
Fucking finally.
Jesussssssss
ITS SO BUFFF <3
Arghhhh
Took me time to put all my contacts in it though LOL

Imma bare tireddd.

ITS NEARLY CHRISTMASSSSSSSSSSS!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIRSTY JING MAN SAI MUI LIU <3
I love you to the moon and back and back around again an infinity times :D
I hope you have the most amazing dayyy
I cant believe your 15 already
Met you all those years ago you know ><
And ive loved every single second of them <3
I
HEART
YOU

Hmm...
Not much to blog recently..
Well there is, but atm, i dont have much time cos im going Kirstys plus mums telling me to go dinner
AND im editing my sons stuff
So yeahh :D

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Im really stupid.
When you think you know someone, think theyre amazing, that theyre different, that theyd never hurt you...
Yeah... i was wrong.

You know when you like someone so much, and then it all just comes crashing down...

When you think theyre different, your most probably so wrong.
But you give it a chance because they make you happy and you hope that you make them happy.

But apparently everything i did, was done the wrong way.

I really liked you,
And I would have done anything for you,
So Im sorry that i hurt you,
But i really thought that we could've been something...
Me and you.

I just made that up as well =_="
Thats how fudged my brain is...

Why is it, that every time, you feel like you are so happy, everything can just fall to pieces, just like THAT.
Its not easy to fall for someone, and its even harder to pick yourself up after youve been hurt.
Whenever you fall for someone, you think its amazing, that they like you back...
Nothing goes your way in the end.

Things change in the space of 2 minutes..
Thats how long it took today.
2 minutes and it was all gone.
Just like THAT.

Ive been so happy for the past month and a bit...
And my moods just gone.
I keep checking my phone, and theres nothing there...
I miss him already...
I know i shouldnt, but i do.

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Omgsh...
I just edited the profiles,
The left side,
The parts that i would never have been able to edit before on a skin!
The old one was screwage ><

I am bare proud of myself =p
Hahaha <3
Im so lame but bareee happyyyy.

Now its exactly how i want it and its so me :D
Hahah, with all the ♥'s, the #'s and x's
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO <3
So happy ^^

Thought id just share that.

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Firstly, Happy Bithday Mai - Po!
Hope you have an amazing day and that you get everything you wished for :D

Havent blogged much recently, i guess there hasnt been much for me to blog about...

This new layout is confusing me..
Bare no buttons or anything
Plus, it says, if you dont wanna read it, just leave LOL
Fail..
And i dunno how to edit anything... =[
But allow having to search the whole fucking internet just for a blog skin..
I just cee bee ayy :D

Lifes been pretty blandd latelyy
The same thing happens everydayy
But i guess thats cool with me, im happy enough =]
My birthday and Christmas are soo closeee!
Im sooo excited its untrue ^^
I just wish it would come sooner

Christmas is soo amazing i swear.
Everythings amazing.
AHHH.
Its all just so amazing.
Hahaha <3

It was so awkward todayyy ><
Ahhhhh
Diew meee =[

Dont you wish life was simpler?
Like in those chick flicks, when you have like a confusing part
But then everything ends happily..
Whens the happy part coming?

Come on its Christmas,
Dont you know its Christmas?
Oh, hold on its Christmas,
Dont you know its Christmas?

Give me your hand,
And il give you mine.
Hug me my love,
Doo dee doo dee dah.

Give me your hand, come on follow me,
To my Winter Wonderland.

Work load is piling up again..
I should get started.. ><
So...

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ITS THE LAST DAY OF NOVEMBER!
WHICH MEANS ITS OFFICIALLY GONNA BE DECEMBER IN ABOUT 19 MINUTES!
OMDZZZZZ <3
What does that mean?! :D
Its gonna be closer and closer to my 17th birthdayyyyyy ^^
Imma be bareee olddd =[
Allowwwwww

Im so excited about not only my birthday, but CHRISTMAS
Christmas has gotta be THE BEST TIME OF YEAR.
No exaggerration of any sort whatsoever.

I bare miss HK though, although, i gotta say, i love Christmas here..
But in HK, we get hugeeee barbeques where ALL the family and ALL the friends are together around christmas timee...
Ohhhh, so hard to chooose =[
BUT IMMA BE BACK THERE NEXT SUMMER <3
Bare excited.
No lie.

AHHH CHRISTMASSSS
AHHH BIRTHDAYYYYY
AHHH ANNIVERSARIES WITH THE BEST FRIENDS.
AHHHHH HAPPPINESSSSSS <3
AHHHH.
JUST AHHHH :D
Hahahhaa <3
Gosh im so happy atmmm =]

SLAVE AUCTION TOMORROW AFTER LUNCH
Which is unfair cos my frees during period 5.
DICKHEADSSS
But oh well, the dance is gonna be immense
Were gonna be amazing, PLUS, its gonna be so much fun
OUTFIT ALL SET. CHECK :D
STUFF TO BRING ALL SET. CHECK :D
GREATTTTTT =]

Then we have slave day on Wednesday
Which means we have another day off school!
CHECKKK :D
Gooooddddd <3

LMAO, Anthony made me laugh soo soo much today, i like pissed myself
Not literally might i add..
But oh my daiz.
He is the funniest person ever who makes my day.
ANTHONY LAI <3

OMGSH ITS ALSO NEARLY NEW YEARS!
OMDZ
2010
ARGHHHH ITS SO FAST
IMMA BE AN ADULTT
NUUUUUUUUUU =[
~CRY CRYYY~

Anyways, i gotta finish packing my stuff for slave auctionnn!
IMMA GOOOO

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First of all:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMIN.

271109 - Your 17th Birthday

Hope you had an amazing day, and that you got everything you wished for.

I love you to pieces and thats all you need to know =]

<3

xxx

Its been like a week since i last blogged..
Well nearly anyways.

In my eyes, a lot has changed...
I dunno, maybe its just me, thinknig too much, or something or other.
Others could see it as normal, but whatever.
Its me, i can think the way i like.
Plus, i get so confused so easily its untrue ><

So... on the weekend, nothing much happened.
Bummed around at home and stuff, as usual tbhhh.
Daddys day off on Sunday, did the normal =] <3
Its weird, most kids dread family days, they wanna go out and shizzle
But i think spending time with my dad on Sundays is just a time to get away from everything.

Talking of kids...
I cant believe that im an ADULT next year...
Like, when i was about 14, i was waiting to become 16..
Now im nearly 17, and i cant believe im gonna be 18 next year.
18 doesnt sound TOO old, but an ADULT.
Im gonna be an adult.
Im so not ready for that.
Sooo not ready ><
Kinda scares me.
Well not scares, but its just weird

When people tell me theyre like.. 19...
Im like, oh cool =]
Its only 2 years difference
But thinking about it for myself?
Im like shitting myself.

So...
Monday through till today, ive been having school obviously.
The weeks are going so fast, which means exams soon...
Its about a month and a bit till my exams, which i am DREADING.
I have 4.
Four Fucking Exams.
Some alliteration there for you, A level English practise right there.
I get confused whether its practise or practice.
My maths teacher explained this the other day.
Forgotten already.
Whatta a fail i am.

Someone who i know is so selfless, and really quite amazing.
Someone completely just dropped him, and he was still blaming himself, saying that he was in the wrong.
Was he?
I dont think he was.
I was a bit upset from the situation and he sensed it, and he was saying how he didnt wanna see me upset.
How cute <3
Like, seriously, he shouldve been thinking about himself, i dunno, tryna figure out why that person had done so?
But he didnt...

And someone else, someone whos girlfriend is making him sad.
He think its his fault.
When tbh, its just as much if not more, hers.
Eurgh, some people.
I just hope hes okai, cos he deserves someone amazing.
Hes truly sucha sweet person =]

Hmmm... someone else who is confusing me.
I dunno whether to believe them or not.
Its difficult, cos i dont wanna be like, okai i believe you.
And then be laughed at in the face cos its a joke.
Loooool.
But what if its true, cos then ive been a complete bitch without meaning to be.
Mehh...

And another person...
Deleting all those outta her life who mean something to her.
Why push them away?
I love her to pieces.
She knows that, which is why i can tell her whether i think what shes doing is right or wrong.
But i dunno.

Allow some people acting weird towards me.
Dont fudge up my mind, fudging mind fudgers...!

Going out to Central tomorrow to catch up with people.
Missing them tbh...

Gotta spend bare moneys tomorrow
Wow...
Presents are soo expensive these days XD
Jeeeeez

But they mean so so much to me <3
I love them to pieces and they deserve it because they have never let me down.
Plus, theyre totally worth it.

ILoveTheWayThatYouTouchMyHand.
DontWannaLetYouGo.

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I wrote 100 christmas cards today <3
I am so bloody organised its untrue.

I went on microsoft word yeah and made four grids
Each grid represented a box of cards cos i had 4 boxes of cards.
Every box had 4 designs, so i had 4 columns in each grid :D
Thenn i put everyones name in =]
And it was all very pretty and OCD
Loool

Thought id just share that with everyone :D
Cos i consider it an accomplishment XD

ITS MY BIRTHDAY IN A MONTH
OMDZZZZZZZ
well
29 days technically
but its the 21st
SO YEAHHHH :D

AND OMG
WTF HAPPENED TO LLOYDS HAIR?!
Omdzzzz
DIEWWWWW =[

I spent £60 in tescos today...
LOOOL
Hmm.. my badddd <3

AND I GOT STAR SHAPED HULA HOOPS
OMLLLLLL <3

Magic Chupa Chupps <3
Mmmm

See, the bold bits are the types of designs... LOOOOL



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Seventeenth:

I went to hospital today.
Fudge myself.
It was SO LONG i swearrr
I waited 3 hours in the waiting room... for an appointment which lasted me about 3 minutes..
Sucha fail.
The doctor gave me some butters eyedrops =s
They are SO bitter and somehow go down my throat...
Confused.com much?
Yes, is the answer :D
So, i rested up that day.
Was gooooodddd <3

BUT

Ive found out so much stuff lately...
Concerning me, concerning others.
Then theres things that have happened.
That i promised myself i wouldnt do until something else stopped.
And it just stopped...
Maybe its fate...
Confused
Hmph
Im always confused
JEEEEZ.
Im so dumb
Fadging hell...
I swear, i have so many varieties of saying that word XD
Such jokes.

Twentieth:

I dreamt last night that both my parents died =s
I MEAN, WTF DREAM IS THAT SPAK'ED?!
Im sucha retard and a half.
Diew my life.

OMDZ, I WATCHED NEW MOON.
Im not joking.
Taylor Lautner IS my GOD.
He is so amazingly BUFF.
I would do him EVERYWHERE.
ANYWHERE.
If only =_="
Just before he nearly came on screen, i shouted bare loud: "ARE YOU READYYY?!"
Then he still had gay hair LOL
So i went "DISAPPOINTEDDDD!"

Then when he was bufff
OMG
Im not joking
NEARLY JIZZED
I shouted "JIZZ IN MY PANTS!"
Which, in my defence, i just said to speak everyone elses mind as well as mine.
I was just saying what no one else dared to say out loud.
JEEEEZ.

Everytime he came on the screen, i was like [oafjpkagnpaknvpainv
Like literally nearly fudged myself and actually muttered jibberish out loud and melted inside :D
Mmmmmmm

Look at himmmmmmm <3



Arghh, Perfection Right There.

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HAPPY THREE MONTHS TROY.
MY LO GONG FOREVER.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHH <3
16.08.09

Im happy happy happy =]

On the other hand...
Im so lost and out of character at the moment.
Doing things, saying things, thinking things that i would never normally do, say, or think.
Maybe theres certain things ive realised that i never realised before.

Not everything is easy and goes your way.
In fact, it rarely does.

Take right now for example:
Right now.. I am ILL
My throat hurts...
My eyes hurt...
AND
My arm is starting to get a rash =_="
Wtfudge have i done to deserve this?
KARMA...
Rahhh ><
Now i know...

"It takes two to tango"
That is so true.
And im sorry.

Anyway...
Cos im ill, i didnt go to school
Gotta catch up on the work...
Do the hw...
My interim report is not gonna have 100% attendance anymore... =[
SAD TIMES.
How gay.

But its okai, i still did something producutive.
Made Troy's present ;)
Mwahaha <3

BUT
I promised myself that I wouldnt anymore.
And i wont :D
Cos i went against my own morals, everything that i thought was right..

I really wanna be in HK right now..
I dunno why...
I guess i miss it kinda..

I had a weird dream last night
I can only remember bits of it.
I hate it when dreams are like that.
I can even remember properly whether it was a good or a bad dream ><
I think it was mixed..

Hm...
I wanna go to bed again...
Cos my eyes hurt so much.
Hahaha
Fucking fail..

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I made a heart and an apple today.
Thats all i have to say :D

If your lucky enough, maybe youll see them one day ^^

I didnt make em on my own though
Someone helped me.

Have fun guessing ;)

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I was sitting in the car today and i found myself thinking about the times when i was younger..
I look back, and i think, all those memories are remembered but so faded sometimes.

Its true that time flies by when your having fun.
In January, as i mentioned before, il have known Kerry and Kirsty for 10 years.
Thats more than half of my life...
Best friends since the beginning.
I was so happy i got their presents last night <3
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

Is it that as you get older, you begin to enjoy things more?
I think its more, i dont want to get older, but i also do...
I hate school, up till year 11...
At the end of year 11, i guess every just got really close, more close than weve ever been throughout the rest of our secondary school times.
I think its knowing that we might be separated at the end that bought us closer together.
We wanted to spend as much time with each other as possible.

And we did separate...
Well, at least i did.
And i know that im upset about leaving all my friends behind, but im actually really glad that i now dont go to the school that i used to.

I think as time goes on, we realise, that we have less and less time.
Im talking as if im like 80 here..
But the truth is, sometimes, you have less time than you think.
I mean thinking about the time ive been friends with Kerry and Kirsty?
Doesnt feel like 10 years AT ALL.

When your young, everthings so EASY.
Your not aware of all the SHIT that happens around you.
Recently, its been okai, no shits happened, but is it too good to last?
2010 is approaching so quickly.
I dont know whether im meant to be =] or =[
Its a bit like, im happy where i am...
But is there more coming?
The answer is yes.
Im only young.

Im really learning to appreciate what and who i have with me whilst i have it.
Is it true?
The "You dont know what youve got til its gone?"
I believe so.

You only get one shot
So make it count
You might never get this moment again.
The clock is ticking down
Its the final round
So tell me whats stopping you know.
Youll never know
Unless you try
The only regret
Sitting wondering "why?"

Quoting JLS ;)

"Boys are like buses."
You either have none, or you have loads at one time..
What is this?!
DIEW

I know its wrong.
But i do want it..
Wanting something thats wrong.
Doesnt that just make me a bad person?

How dyu know whether you like someone or not?
Its so difficult to tell.

We should keep it private
Nobody’s gotta know
Keep this thing on the low
Don’t need nobody else
Just you and me invited
No need to shout it out
It's not what its about
If you can keep a secret

JLS.
Wonder who thats directed to.
Hmmm.

I swear im relating to JLS so much right noww pahaha XD
Every chorus i swear is like, MY LIFE.

Anywaysss
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Just to start, I wanna mention that cos today is the 11th of November, everyone had a minutes silence on the 11th minute of the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month.

This makes me think.
11th...
For each one of those bits...
Is it fate?
Destiny?
Planned out?

To think, that it couldve been a coincidence, really confuses me, cos its weird how it can just be so coincidental..

Me and Alex had a conversation the other day, about fate, destiny, whether people are meant to be.
I think that certain people are meant to be together, if its meant to be, its meant to be.
No forcing, no trying really hard, no tears, no hurt.
Just being together.
I believe that theres someone out there for everyone.
Some people think different.

brbbbb
*goes to dinner*

BACK, yeah yeah, i know, you missed me.. :D

Okai, carrying on, ive heard people saying things about me, how im replacing a best friend in a friendship group...
Seems to me that these people hate the fact that im making new friends.
Im not trying to replace anyone, especially as i dunno them...
Im just tryna make friends and fit in.
Why all the accusations?

I think that if your meant to meet someone, then youll meet them, no matter when, how, where, why and what not.
Thinking about it, ive known Ethan for nearly a year now...
Its gone so fast.
Something thats gone even faster?
Kerry and Kirsty...
Nearly 10 years...
TEN FUCKING YEARS.
Jesus...
Feeels like yesterday <3
I love these three people to pieces.
No lie.

But i feel like sucha fail.
Find them the perfect present that they deserve is proving to be difficult.
I have these ideas, then keep thinking that theyre just not good enough.
Mehh =[

SOUR STRAWBS ARE SO GOOD
Mmm, wanna thank Alaine for buying me em ;)
And talking of Alaine, or typing rather, shes gonna call me in an hour and a half :D
Were gonna do stats hw over the phone together..
Neeks.
Which means i should do other hw before she calls me.
But i cba? :D

Lyrics are so good.
Explains my whole FACKING LIFE.

I gotta new Baby Yip <3
Hes the one with the dimples ;)
SHO CUTE INITTTTTTT
Love Love Babyy Yippppp

Im also really worried that my male friends know more about boy bands than me...
But then i dont really listen to Korean and Jap music...
All i know is that this new form of eye candy is facking bonerfied ;)
2PM
Big Bang
Fahrenheit - Original Taiwan shizzle ;)

I gotta do my nail polish soon..
SHIT HW
Oh well ^^

Jehjeh&Muimui had their first proper serious conversation, started 18:23 <3
Its good to have conversations to people you love about serious stuff that actually happens.

So why you wanna go kickstart the drama? (8)
Now dont you know you cant break through my armour (8)
Its a little too late to want me now its dead and gone (8)

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So youd think that id be asleep..

00:49

Well, NEWS FLASH
Im not asleep :D

Hmm, blogspot can be so silly sometimes...
Bare confuses my eyes...
LOOOOL

Anyway, heres a funny joke for you :D

So there were 3 ducks.
They were caught by a policeman and bought to the court.

The first duck waddles up to the judge and the judge says: "Whats your name?"
The duck replies: "Duck 1"
The judge then says: "Okai, what were you doing?"
And the duck says: "I was blowing bubbles."
So the judge said: "Thats fair, nothing wrong with blowing bubbles."

The second duck waddles up to the judge and the judge says: "Whats your name?"
The duck replies: "Duck 2"
The judge says: "And what were you doing?"
And the duck says: "I was blowing bubbles."
So the judge says: "Blowing bubbles... nothing wrong with that."

The third duck waddles up and the judge says: "Let me guess, your names Duck 3"
And the duck replies: "No, my names bubbles :D"

HAHAHA
Oh
My
God
Im hilarious..
LOOOL
Okai, this joke is courtesy of Zoe.
No copyright intended ;)
But still, made my critical thinking lesson better LOOOL

Hmm.. im tireddd

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GUESS WHAT I FOUND OUT TODAY?!
THAT THE WORLDS GONNA END ON MY 20TH BIRTHDAY!
I MEAN
WTFUDGE?!
Dont be mean ><

Allow the world ending in 2012 end of, cos thats bare close =s
I dont wanna die ><
I wanna like live my life! D=

But then at least, i dont have to endure FAILING UNI
LOLLL
BUT STILL
Allow dying on my birthday =_="
Fucking spak'eds.

Its 00:35 atmmm
Imma still class it as Monday, even though its Tuesday.

Had some longggg critical thinking lesson today
But it was bare simple
I ACTUALLY GOT SHIT RIGHT
HAHA
That made me so happy :DDDDDDDDDDD

I had sushi for diner boiii
So facking jap :D
Love ittt <3

I feel like MCD's LOOOL
SORRY WHAT TIME IS IT?! :D

Found out David Johnson reads my blog...
I was like YOU WHAT?! D=
Never expected that!

BUT WHILST IM MENTIONING HIM
Thank you for the JLS album ;)

Ethan says he knows exactly what to get me for my birthday ><
Im excited but worried now =s
Cos Kirstys reactions was like o.O
LOOOL
Fail.

Im really tired now :D
LETS GO SLEEP.

Wow... im really hyper atm ><
Even though i shouldnt be...
Someone facking upset me.
I didnt even do anything =[

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100 Things..
Heres your chance to find out some stuff :D

1. I am always with my camera.

2. RED WINEGUMS

3. Apparently im too nice...

4. I always leave hw till last minute =_="

5. I love taking pictures.

6. Im so smooth at taking mugshots. XD

7. I like rice and noodles... Therefore, im yellow :D

8. But apparently im the whitest asian people know...

9. I still sleep with teddies on my bed...

10. Abercrombie & Fitch takes up most of my wardrobe

11. I love my friends, they mean so much <3

12. My mates always leave their stuff at my house after staying at mine and never take it back =_="

13. I text all the time..

14. I am ALWAYS on the phone. Im not joking. I was on the phone 10 minutes ago.

15. I have 17 hoodies.

16. I chew gum way too much.

17. I am SO loud. Like REALLY loud.

18. I dont seem shy to anyone, but my best mates know i can be.

19. MSN and FB

20. My memorys kinda silly, but i remember dates really well.

21. My hairs naturally straight.

22. My eyes are lighter brown that most peoples cos my dad has blue eyes... Even though hes chinese...

23. I dont brush my hair in the mornings cos i cba...

24. I love cute stuff <3

25. I love wearing loads of bracelets at one time.

26. Ive known Kerry and Kirsty for 10 years. Thats also how long weve been best friends for.

27. I sleep way too late for my own good.

28. I always share my food with people cos my friends like to steal my food =_="

29. I have 2 phone numbers.

30. If im angry, i cry.

31. If im sad or upset, i cry.

32. I love shopping <3

33. I have a new thing with calling people baby now...

34. But i only like one person atm

35. I fell for him really fast...

36. BUT ANYWAY, i hate science.

37. I have loads of phone charms.

38. I love JLS' new songs ;)

39. I get distracted really easily.

40. Loving boys who are sweet.

41. I always wear big clips in my fringe... So Asiann haha

42. I can speak English, Canto, Mando, Hakka <3

43. I love music (L)

44. I love matching stuff - Underwear, Jewellery hahaha

45. I buy such pointless stuff... I always like realise all my moneys gone ><

46. I over think stuff wayy too much

47. Me and Ethan have matching chains ^^

48. Im kinda well organised...

49. I cry way too much. I cry like... all the time..

50. I can get embarrassed really easily sometimes...

51. I have cute duvet covers haha =p

52. I go to Wing Yip all the time pahah <3

53. I love chuppa chupps :D

54. Tescos 24 hours is the best

55. I love stickers. LOL

56. Im not your average stereotyped chinese girl.

57. Im not short, i dont have small boobs and i dont have dyed hair =_="

58. I drink loads of water at home. Not so much when im out.. =s

59. I ALWAYS carry a bag with me.

60. I actually enjoy school atm...

61. I spend way too much money in LDN

62. I can be amazingly immature at times :D

63. But then im also really mature at other times.

64. I loveeee pretty things.

65. I hate it when i get wayyy too many notifications on FB cos then that means il most probably miss one out...

66. I waste my time SO MUCH

67. I do pointless things and do fuck all when i should be doing hw.

68. Im naturally a flirt... Thats my personality.

69. But before i sleep, i always think about that one person. And just how much i like them.

70. Im funny :D LOOOL <3

71. Im really slow sometimes.. I cant seem to take the hint..

72. I like DMC'ing. Its so good <3

73. I trust and love too easily..

74. I can be a bitch when i want to be.

75. If youve hurt my friends, then expect beef from me too.

76. I think my parents are amazing.

77. I can be soo lazy =_="

78. I love talking. I talk way too much.

79. I love laughing too. Im always laughing, and i smile loadsss =_="

80. I love Kerry, Kirsty, Ethan && Karmen.

81. The thing i hate most is being lied to. Just fucking tell me the fucking truth fucking spak'ed's

82. I hate it when people tell me they think im pretty, cos its blatently a lie. And no, i wont say your pretty back just cos you said it to me =_="

83. I hate people who are up themselves. SEND ME A POSTCARD WHEN YOU GET TO THE TOP! 8)

84. I hate mind games. With the opposite sex. JUST TELL ME WHAT YOUR THINKING ¬.¬

85. I am the most indecisive person EVER. I cant even decide on what to eat ffs

86. I love HK. <3

87. I hate getting out of my bed in the morning when its all warm in my bed and freezing once im out =[

88. I love HUGS.

89. Apparently i give the best hugs =p ;)

90. I hate fake people.

91. I hate judgemental people

92. I hate hypocrites.

93. I hate awkwardness...

94. I always link arms with people, or hold hands with people.

95. I dont get emotional whilst im on my blob!

96. I hate being a girl for the blob reason alone =_="

97. I provide sandwiches for Rayray Liu ALL THE TIME.

98. I love my iPod.

99. My mummys in HK.

100. Im tiredd.. Probably gonna lie in bed to text that one person now.BAIBAII <3 x

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Ive had sucha good past 2 days...
Im not even gonna lie.
Ive had a smile plastered on my face for sooo long
My mates think ive gone mad XD

School was good todayyy
Well... woke up feeling SHATTERED
I was so so tired EVEN THOUGH I WENT TO SLEEP AT 1:30 the night before.. which was kinda early ><
Got dressed and that and wore my HOODIE COMPLETE WITH FUR
I knew Borui would ask me if i wrapped up warm today ><
So might as well do it <3

Playing F4 atm...
Always makes me think
Music Music Music
陪你去看流星雨落在這地球上讓你的淚落在我肩膀
F4
Apparently it stands for Fantasy 4Ever?
I was like wtfudge... =s
Fantasy's (Y)
Reality <3

Had my stats lesson today
Was bare jokes
DINKYY WAS BACKK
Hehehe
Then i finished all the work in the lesson so i did some psychology hw after i was finished <3
Now i have less hw!
TALKING OF HW
I HAVE AN ENGLISH ESSAY IN FOR TOMORROW
Sheeeeeet

Its All About You
Im In Love With You
我眼中分分秒秒也有你。

G.E.M Tang.
Sucha good song.

我不明白，这么多事发生。
我想一下我的过去，我见到很多不好的事。
我和我的朋友，现在，不是朋友。
我都不知道什么发生。
虽然，我是没有做到什么，但是我想样样都好。
但是，我知道不可以。
是每有可能的。
我也知道。

Im so tireddd these days ><
Those songs Ethan got for me are amazing
Borui's amazing for showing me them.
Rawrrr <3
Good songs (Y)
But i realised chinese singers have a fetish for milk bottles loool =]

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Havent blogged in a few days...
Thought id do some catching up.
If only i was like this with work...

Well...
Since i last blogged, Halloween took place.
And the beginning of school (today) happened...

Erm...
Well actually, theres not much to say...
Ive been pretty much happy the past few days.

Lets start on the 311009:

Woke up to go to Central for Halloween...
I thought there was gonna be LOADS of scary people, but there were only rushes of scary people.
Met new people yet again... I swear they get younger and younger as the days go on.

I remember when i first started hanging out in Central, i was like... one of the young ones...
Well... at least, people were in my year... and what not...
Now, there are so many young people!
No lie o.O

I cant say whether its a good or bad thing...
I guess it could be both

Anyways, I had a good day, made me laugh
So many things, you know, that just make you laugh =]
Even if its something small, itll make you smile
Having people that you love to pieces around you helps
Whether theyre there when you need a hug, someone to talk to, or just there.

I saw AMY LIU
So happy to see her <3
Ive missed her so so much ><
Havent seen her in like.. an AGE
But then she had to disappear off to a party =[

My mates made me laugh cos they had incense sticks
And they were just mucking around with them
Pahaha
Pretending to pray and everything...
After about an hour of messing about
Kelvin goes: "Wait... Why am i even doing this? IM BUDDHIST!"
Right then... AFTER SUCHA A LONG TIME OF COMPLETELY DISSING IT LOL <3
Ohh... they are funny people.

Troy officially became the father of my children.
Well.. thing is... our family trees a bit messed up :D
LOL
Our kids are older than us ><
Well.. 2 of them anyways...

It goes:

Jimmy - Eldest baby
Anthony - Adopted baby
Jordan - Fillipino baby
Bianca - Amazing baby
Karmen - Middle baby
Ken - Baby boy
Risa - Airport baby
Shirlene - Baby girl
Alex - Only real baby

Lotta kids huh? ;)
Theyre all special heheh <3

Hmm...
Just sent a random man an email so i can help promote an event.
Ooo, feeling quite excited...
LOL ^o)

BRB
DINNER
*goes for dinner*

OKAIII IM BACKKKKKKK :D
Missed me? ;)

But anyways
Yesterday which was 021109:

Omgsh... i cant believe its November already ><
Its gone so fast...
Im nearly 17
SHIT <3

But yeah, i wished for people to be straight with me.
The person who i wanted to be straight with me, was straight with me...
My first ever wish come true.

I dunno...
I like that person more than I should
Mainly cos im SURE that i like him more than he likes me.
Early days, early days.
Its not even like were going out.
Just.. feelings...
Admittance..
Mmm...

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Thorpe park was so good.
Lets go through the day.

• I woke up at 7
• Brushed my teeth, got dressed and all that.
• Got to Waterloo at 9:20
• Everyone arrived and we all waited for Karmen.
• Karmen is always late <3
• We got the train to TP
• And it was such a fun day.
• The group of 16 people ended up splitting, it was bound to happen, but mehh
• We all went on the Saw ride TOGETHER thoughh
• And Loggers Leap ;)
• Those were really good.
• The pig woman at Saw scared the SHIT outta me.
• We got the train back to Central for Karaoke.

281009:
Karaoke was meant to end at 3am...
It ended up ending at 7am...
I mean, so many people cant take their drink.

Someone disgusted me.
Really really disgusted me.
I wont expose, but seriously?
Wow...
Never would i have thought that they were capable of that.

Anyway
Got to my mates att 7, went to sleep at 7:30
Thought i had like 5 hours sleep
When it was actually 2.5 =s
Was so weird, felt way longer.
Much much longer...
Yesterday seems like last week =s
Thats how messed up it was.

I did something that i regret.
It was really wrong.
I wish i hadnt done it.
Well... i say that now, why didnt i stop it?
I couldnt?
I didnt want to?
Ahhh ><

So, i had been up from 7 till 7, then had about 3 hours sleep all together...
So that meanss...
I had 3 hours sleep for the whole two days...
Wtfudge ><
Went back to Central at around 2
Well... we went to the O2 arena for C Walk linkup
I thought i wasnt gonna go, but i did... :D
Was okaiii

Saw everyone again <3
Love Love
Then we all went Central together, was good
Messed around and stuff

Having fun is such a good feeling <3
Got really bored at one point, we went to take sticker picturess ;)
Richie and Rayray are gay for not taking any.
Grrrr All they do is block my face with their hands you know =_="
Dickksssss <3

Went home really early though
At like 8:15

Then... last night, i had 14 hours sleep
BOOYAAAAAA
I owned my sleeping pattern big time... =s
Im really confused atm...

y mind is still fudged Jeez ><
Why cant he just be straight?
PLEASE.
Answer me and maybe i can move on.
But he wont.

I wish it would stop.
Please stop.

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Expo.

It was really good actually.
Dressed up as school girls with Karmen.
Was good to catch up with everyone =]
Anime isnt really my thing though
Abul gave me a toy =]
I jacked Adebooboo's monkey.
But he jacked it in the first place.
KARMA.

Traf.

Yeah, after Expo, we went back to central from the Excel Centre and hung round traf for a bit.
What else do we do?
But yesterday, it was different.
Even though we were there for a good 2 hours, just standing in the cold
It felt strangely different, like there was a different feeling.
People we chatting, no arguments, taking pictures, play fighting, just chilling out with people in general.
Thats the feeling that i want back.
When everything was so much less complicated.
Maybe its too much to ask.

Drink Up.

Yeah, this is when things started to get complicated.
Not only did tears start, but fights broke out, verbal abuse took place, misunderstandings happened and mistakes were made.
Drinking to me, has never been all that good of an idea.
And if you do drink, then do it carefully, know your limits, control yourself.
It only makes people upset if they have something to get off their chest.
Would it be easier doing the same thing whilst sober?
I guess, some people find it hard to express their feelings, but still, come on.
Lets be realistic here.

The Journey Home.

Karmen was wasted.
No lie.
Omgsh, i was like how the fudge?!
But shes my best friend
Her responsiblities are mine.
End of.

She was calling up people and shit
And it was soo difficult to stop her.
She nearly made us both pk down the stairs XD
Saw my bloody life flash before my eyes i swear.
Thank you to Troy (again), Ky and Kelvin for helping me with her <3
I appreciate you guys so so much.

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Central.

Cousins came to visit from Spain and Canada.
It was really good to see them again.
Ive missed them loads.
But who couldve thought that sushi costs £150?!
I was like jesus...
No lie.
It was also good spending time with my daddy =]

Home.

Came back from dinner and shit started to happen.
Friends started accusing me.
Boys started confusing me.
I dont understand why mates cant get their facts straight
And why boys can just be straight altogether.
And i dont mean sexuality straight.
I mean direct, straight forward.
Allow the mind games and shit.
Theyre just there to confuse things.
Why would you want that?

I felt so so much, yet i couldnt do anything or say anything about it becayse id rather him be happy.
Is that what its come to?
Me putting myself after a guy every time?
And therefore, putting a guy before myself every time?
I wish that one day, it could be the other way round just for a day.
Thats all i want.

Maybe i fall for people too easily.
Maybe theyre nice to me and i fall for them.
But then again, if that was the case, id like every single guy wouldnt i?
And i dont, so i guess, that theory doesnt work.
So people say i flirt.
But who says they dont?
Surely everyone flirts a bit these days
Whether your a natural flirt or not.

But the fact is, i do still have feelings.
Feelings which make me feel things.
DOI.
It hurts.
But others dont seem to realise just how mcuh or even at all.
But i gues thats just bad luck on my part.
I wont blame anyone.

261009:

Ive just been confused.com
Like the whole day.
But then thats nothing new.
Maybe it was due to the fact that i slept at 5 this morning and woke up at 11:30
6.5 hours sleep is bound to affect me.
Plus, i didnt sleep too well, stuff on my mind is CLOUDEDD.

Had a dmc with quite a few people.
Dmc's are so good.
No actual joke <3

Im tired, i might have a nap :D
My mind has been running overdrive for the past 48 hours.
Ive had a strange feeling in my tummy for the past 18 hours.
And ive had a headache for the past 12 hours.
GOOD TIMES =_="

Thorpe park tomorrow.
Im looking forward to it.

Over and OUTTTTT

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So, i felt like a bit of a shit friend yesterday.
It was Karmens birthday and i didnt even blog to say happy birthday
So imma make up for it now.

PLUS
Its my sons birthday today too <3

SO

I wanna say:

Happy Belated Birthday Karmen
You mean the world to me and you are such a good friend.
I wish you all the happiness that you deserve, which is such a great amount.
You have been supportive throughout everything and you never fail to be there for me.
Thank you for being here when i needed you most through the past months when shit has happened.
When everyone left, you were still here for me along with some others.
Without you, i dont know what id do and i definitely wouldnt be the person i am today.
Thank you for that alone.

I love you
我爱你。

Now, Ken.
I am so so glad i met you.
You are such an amazing jai!
You are so sweet and everything.
Thank you for being there to make me laugh when i need some laughs, when i need someone, your there :D
You are such a nice person and everyone loves you lots <3
Never forget to be you, and stay amazing =]

Now that ive said the important stuff, i can get down to some other stuff...

Theres someone im starting to like...
I know i shouldnt, but i cant help it?
I dont even know if i like him, its just weird...
Help
But dont help
So much drama...
So muchh confusion
Confused.com is the wayy...
As per usual

I get told so much stuff these days
Sometimes i really wish that i didnt have so many secrets to keep
Secrets come in from all directions and its just like... MY BRAIN D=

Talking about brains, HALF TERM IS HERE
I am so so happy its untrue <3

Hmmm...
Ive started to think recently, that if you like someone, their flaws are what makes you attracted to them as well right?
RIGHT.
So.. therefore, when you like someone, theyre perfect to you.
What if you cant find that perfect someone?
Its really hard to find someone who you love, and trust with all your life.
And sometimes, when you do think you find that and then you get hurt so so much, it just all comes tumbling down.
Then that naturally leads to you being insecure in your relationship.

Someone recently said to me, something along the lines of "i dont wanna put so much effort into my next relationship now because of my last one"
But thing is, think about it, what if the next relationship is the one where the other person likes you so so much.
That means because of your past experiences, you ruin what you COULD have.
You never wanna think, its what you WOULD have had.
Right?

I mean, okai, be cautious and careful, but what if that person thinks your being a dick?
Even if the person understands your situation, its like...
Well, ACTUALLY, not all people are the same.
One boy is not all boys
One girl is not all girls
You cant compare one boy to all boys
You cant compare one girl to all girls.
End of.
No argument.

Sooo
Ponder it :D

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What can i say?
Lifes a bitch.

To all those who have betrayed me:
FUDGE YOU
Fudge is yummy... maybe your not worth that word
Erm...
Whatever, not in the mood to think of another word =]

I really dont understand people these days.
I get so confused.com
Maybe its me, maybe its not...
Rahhh

Its like, if you cant deal with the consequences, dont do something
All this, i didnt think it would hurt you so much...
Now theres a line ive heard everyday for the past few weeks...

Mmm, sooo
Havent blogged for a bit now
The weekend...
It was interesting, theres one way of putting it.

You know when you try, but it really fails?
Yeah thats what happened.

We tried, we really did.
But it really didnt work
All it resulted in was tears, awkwardness, cowards and shit.
Absolute jack SHIT.
No lie.

But you know, apart from that, it was actually one of the best days ive had in London.
Dragged people to Covent Garden =p
Had major loads of fun <3
Its like, you didnt expect it to be this fun, but it is.
That was the feeling.
I love that feeling ^^

WASABI, ITS OKAI YOU WERENT THERE
You werent to know <3

Thank you to those who were there for me:

Kerry
Kirsty
Ethan
Karmen
Crystal
Kelvin
Osagie
Nathan
Richie
Borui
Jason
KC

AHHAHA
I played PUMP for the first time...
No jokes, i got an A
HAHAH
On easy... (shhh)

Im not gonna talk too much about the negative sideee
I just cba with those people anymore
Lies, Rumours, Shit
WHATEVER :D

Sunday was a good dayy!
Was with Karmen =]
Then went home
Took me 2.5 hours to get home you knowww
Jeeeez
LOLL
BUTTTT
Was worth ittt ^^

Today, school was okaii =]
GOT FRESHERS TOMORROW
Gonna be bare cold in PJ's
Dads all wear a coat XD
Il look like a gay =_="

Either wayy

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My day was pretty good this morning ^^
Cold but good :D

School was okai =]
Was a bit confusing for me XD ><
But you know what im like, i get confused too easily all the time!

Was boiling at the end of the day
I finished school bare early though cos my critical thinking lesson was cancelled =p

Just now though, ive got killed by wasabi ><

He told me that hes gonna have to go back to America during December ><
Forever =[
Im really sad ><
And i know hes reading this, so imma tell him that imma cryy =[
Hes missing my birthday and EVERYTHING!
I hate him D=
Well i dontt, but yeahhh

Borui makes me laugh XD

Borbor: Wah you doin now cutie
Me: Eating biscuits ^^ Loool. What about you cuter?
Borbor: LOL, yh im jst on msn no.1 cutie
Me: Ohhh, your silly, eat some biscuits with me cutest ^^
Borbor: Yeh i wud love to my no.1 cutie :)
Me: We eat biscuits together! theyre from hawaii :P Haha <3
Borbor: Lool. Awww (L) My happy cute lil dappy

Looool
Were so lame? (Y)

And him bare saying "u get me"
Its like "yeh i get u"
Quote him
But then most of the time i get confused.com?
As i always do?
Everyone knows i get confused easily =[
LOL

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Todayy, Thomas Charles McFarland came round and it was soo good to have a catch uppp :D
Ate popcorn for lunchh (Y)

Then waited for family friends to come overr
Spent a day with them then went dinner.

Just came back!
Todays been a pretty bland day tbh.

Vid calling with Karmen atm
I love her :D

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Imma backhand her back to China.
No lie.
Allow making Karmen upset you know.
Fuckers.

Today started off really good!
I woke up at 11 (really early ><)
I did some hwww :D
Imma sucha good girlll =]
And then i waited for Keith to come overrr
Was so good seeing him again.
IVE MISSED HIMMMM <3
Hehehhe
SO MUCH PIZZA D=
No lie...
Wanted to die afterwards XD

My fingers still hurt T_T
Rarrrrr ><
But its okaii :D

Then, i just confronted people.
Dont you hate it, when they lie STILL
After theyve been exposed and you KNOW THEYRE LYING
Its like... completely no point.

And funny thing is, theyre all backstabbing each other, blaming each other to us.
Its like, BEST FRIENDS?! HAHHHAHA
Give over.

Karmen is being a gay and singing FUCK YOU on vid call XD <3
I actually love her.
Kirsty is here on msn with me =]
LOVE THEMM

People have been tryna beg from my mate...
Its like, dont lie about us being friends when were not just to get more friends that way.
Damn theyre dumb.
Its a bit like, stop being so maniipulative and naive.
And not to mention 2 faced!
Such bad liars, really, sucha bad liars.
No jokes.

Im so shattereddd.

Over and OUTTT

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Today has been a good day.

Well... first, i had englishh...
Doublee in fact.
It was good.
We read some more Heathcliff =]
I am in love with him <3
IT WAS FOUAD
I WAS SO SO HAPPY <3
Good times (L)

After school, i met up with Holly
It was so good to have a catch up after not seeing her for AGES.
I did some shopping ^^
It was good :D

Then it was time for:

FREDI'S SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY!

It was amazing seeing her! <3
I have missed her and Molly so so much.
She was so surprised when i turned up behind her XD
Made me giggle.
Took loads of pictures =]
YAYYYYY

Im actually freezing atm.
How is it so cold?
And i feel shattered D=
Gonna go bed sooon
Keiths coming over tomorrow =]

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I GOT ASSIGNED BIRTHDAY STICKER GIVER TODAY!
My job starts on Monday ;)
Basically, very Monday, when its assembly, i give everyone who has a birthday during the rest of the week, a sticker!
ISNT IT SO CUTE?!
And they might get hats too... =p
I was like I WANNA DO IT I WANNA DO IT! <3

Thorpe park really soon
Which means half term really soon!
Which means exams... even closer D=
Im soooo shitting myselff ><

All my hw and shizzle has been good so far, so much of it though.
Im doing psychology hw as we speak (or as i type)

People still need to confirm for TP... theyre bare taking their time..
Its so annoyinggg

WASABI IS SOO GAYYYYYYY
HE SAYS HE MIGHT BE IN "STEVENHENGE" (which sounds like stonehenge to me)
BUT YEAHH!
GAYYY POOOOO

Playing "Dont Wanna Miss A Thing" By Aerosmith on the piano is difficulttt
It makes my fingers tireddd =[

English was so good today, forgot my book, i gotta copy up all my notes o.O
Wuthering Heights was so shit at first
Its starting to get good now (that sounds really neeky...)
LOL
But yeahh, its getting really cute and romantic!
Just the way its meant to be ^^
UNTIL FUCKING PEOPLE BREAK IT UP
Fml...

Gotta maths test on Monday...
Jeez... im so not looking forward to it...
I havent revised much?
I SHOULD :D
But i cba ^^

Seeing Holly tomorrow for a catch upp, need ittt
Then its Fredi's birthday party, YAYYYY! <3
It also means a chance for me to go shopping! =p

I got married to Amin todayy
He asked me to make him tea, with THREE SUGARS!
His sugar levels ><
He said he usually takes FOUR D=
I was like... o.O
But anyways, i said i woulddd ^^
And then he said he liked it white and creamy ;)
Guess what else is white and creamy? HHAHA <3

ILoveKingYewKYChoo.
Hes probably reading this cos he said he wanted to be in it =p
YOUSMELLLLLLL <3

I feel like sushi :D

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