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Thorpe park was so good.
Lets go through the day.

• I woke up at 7
• Brushed my teeth, got dressed and all that.
• Got to Waterloo at 9:20
• Everyone arrived and we all waited for Karmen.
• Karmen is always late <3
• We got the train to TP
• And it was such a fun day.
• The group of 16 people ended up splitting, it was bound to happen, but mehh
• We all went on the Saw ride TOGETHER thoughh
• And Loggers Leap ;)
• Those were really good.
• The pig woman at Saw scared the SHIT outta me.
• We got the train back to Central for Karaoke.

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Karaoke was meant to end at 3am...
It ended up ending at 7am...
I mean, so many people cant take their drink.

Someone disgusted me.
Really really disgusted me.
I wont expose, but seriously?
Wow...
Never would i have thought that they were capable of that.

Anyway
Got to my mates att 7, went to sleep at 7:30
Thought i had like 5 hours sleep
When it was actually 2.5 =s
Was so weird, felt way longer.
Much much longer...
Yesterday seems like last week =s
Thats how messed up it was.

I did something that i regret.
It was really wrong.
I wish i hadnt done it.
Well... i say that now, why didnt i stop it?
I couldnt?
I didnt want to?
Ahhh ><

So, i had been up from 7 till 7, then had about 3 hours sleep all together...
So that meanss...
I had 3 hours sleep for the whole two days...
Wtfudge ><
Went back to Central at around 2
Well... we went to the O2 arena for C Walk linkup
I thought i wasnt gonna go, but i did... :D
Was okaiii

Saw everyone again <3
Love Love
Then we all went Central together, was good
Messed around and stuff

Having fun is such a good feeling <3
Got really bored at one point, we went to take sticker picturess ;)
Richie and Rayray are gay for not taking any.
Grrrr All they do is block my face with their hands you know =_="
Dickksssss <3

Went home really early though
At like 8:15

Then... last night, i had 14 hours sleep
BOOYAAAAAA
I owned my sleeping pattern big time... =s
Im really confused atm...

y mind is still fudged Jeez ><
Why cant he just be straight?
PLEASE.
Answer me and maybe i can move on.
But he wont.

I wish it would stop.
Please stop.

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Expo.

It was really good actually.
Dressed up as school girls with Karmen.
Was good to catch up with everyone =]
Anime isnt really my thing though
Abul gave me a toy =]
I jacked Adebooboo's monkey.
But he jacked it in the first place.
KARMA.

Traf.

Yeah, after Expo, we went back to central from the Excel Centre and hung round traf for a bit.
What else do we do?
But yesterday, it was different.
Even though we were there for a good 2 hours, just standing in the cold
It felt strangely different, like there was a different feeling.
People we chatting, no arguments, taking pictures, play fighting, just chilling out with people in general.
Thats the feeling that i want back.
When everything was so much less complicated.
Maybe its too much to ask.

Drink Up.

Yeah, this is when things started to get complicated.
Not only did tears start, but fights broke out, verbal abuse took place, misunderstandings happened and mistakes were made.
Drinking to me, has never been all that good of an idea.
And if you do drink, then do it carefully, know your limits, control yourself.
It only makes people upset if they have something to get off their chest.
Would it be easier doing the same thing whilst sober?
I guess, some people find it hard to express their feelings, but still, come on.
Lets be realistic here.

The Journey Home.

Karmen was wasted.
No lie.
Omgsh, i was like how the fudge?!
But shes my best friend
Her responsiblities are mine.
End of.

She was calling up people and shit
And it was soo difficult to stop her.
She nearly made us both pk down the stairs XD
Saw my bloody life flash before my eyes i swear.
Thank you to Troy (again), Ky and Kelvin for helping me with her <3
I appreciate you guys so so much.

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Central.

Cousins came to visit from Spain and Canada.
It was really good to see them again.
Ive missed them loads.
But who couldve thought that sushi costs £150?!
I was like jesus...
No lie.
It was also good spending time with my daddy =]

Home.

Came back from dinner and shit started to happen.
Friends started accusing me.
Boys started confusing me.
I dont understand why mates cant get their facts straight
And why boys can just be straight altogether.
And i dont mean sexuality straight.
I mean direct, straight forward.
Allow the mind games and shit.
Theyre just there to confuse things.
Why would you want that?

I felt so so much, yet i couldnt do anything or say anything about it becayse id rather him be happy.
Is that what its come to?
Me putting myself after a guy every time?
And therefore, putting a guy before myself every time?
I wish that one day, it could be the other way round just for a day.
Thats all i want.

Maybe i fall for people too easily.
Maybe theyre nice to me and i fall for them.
But then again, if that was the case, id like every single guy wouldnt i?
And i dont, so i guess, that theory doesnt work.
So people say i flirt.
But who says they dont?
Surely everyone flirts a bit these days
Whether your a natural flirt or not.

But the fact is, i do still have feelings.
Feelings which make me feel things.
DOI.
It hurts.
But others dont seem to realise just how mcuh or even at all.
But i gues thats just bad luck on my part.
I wont blame anyone.

261009:

Ive just been confused.com
Like the whole day.
But then thats nothing new.
Maybe it was due to the fact that i slept at 5 this morning and woke up at 11:30
6.5 hours sleep is bound to affect me.
Plus, i didnt sleep too well, stuff on my mind is CLOUDEDD.

Had a dmc with quite a few people.
Dmc's are so good.
No actual joke <3

Im tired, i might have a nap :D
My mind has been running overdrive for the past 48 hours.
Ive had a strange feeling in my tummy for the past 18 hours.
And ive had a headache for the past 12 hours.
GOOD TIMES =_="

Thorpe park tomorrow.
Im looking forward to it.

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So, i felt like a bit of a shit friend yesterday.
It was Karmens birthday and i didnt even blog to say happy birthday
So imma make up for it now.

PLUS
Its my sons birthday today too <3

SO

I wanna say:

Happy Belated Birthday Karmen
You mean the world to me and you are such a good friend.
I wish you all the happiness that you deserve, which is such a great amount.
You have been supportive throughout everything and you never fail to be there for me.
Thank you for being here when i needed you most through the past months when shit has happened.
When everyone left, you were still here for me along with some others.
Without you, i dont know what id do and i definitely wouldnt be the person i am today.
Thank you for that alone.

I love you
我爱你。

Now, Ken.
I am so so glad i met you.
You are such an amazing jai!
You are so sweet and everything.
Thank you for being there to make me laugh when i need some laughs, when i need someone, your there :D
You are such a nice person and everyone loves you lots <3
Never forget to be you, and stay amazing =]

Now that ive said the important stuff, i can get down to some other stuff...

Theres someone im starting to like...
I know i shouldnt, but i cant help it?
I dont even know if i like him, its just weird...
Help
But dont help
So much drama...
So muchh confusion
Confused.com is the wayy...
As per usual

I get told so much stuff these days
Sometimes i really wish that i didnt have so many secrets to keep
Secrets come in from all directions and its just like... MY BRAIN D=

Talking about brains, HALF TERM IS HERE
I am so so happy its untrue <3

Hmmm...
Ive started to think recently, that if you like someone, their flaws are what makes you attracted to them as well right?
RIGHT.
So.. therefore, when you like someone, theyre perfect to you.
What if you cant find that perfect someone?
Its really hard to find someone who you love, and trust with all your life.
And sometimes, when you do think you find that and then you get hurt so so much, it just all comes tumbling down.
Then that naturally leads to you being insecure in your relationship.

Someone recently said to me, something along the lines of "i dont wanna put so much effort into my next relationship now because of my last one"
But thing is, think about it, what if the next relationship is the one where the other person likes you so so much.
That means because of your past experiences, you ruin what you COULD have.
You never wanna think, its what you WOULD have had.
Right?

I mean, okai, be cautious and careful, but what if that person thinks your being a dick?
Even if the person understands your situation, its like...
Well, ACTUALLY, not all people are the same.
One boy is not all boys
One girl is not all girls
You cant compare one boy to all boys
You cant compare one girl to all girls.
End of.
No argument.

Sooo
Ponder it :D

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What can i say?
Lifes a bitch.

To all those who have betrayed me:
FUDGE YOU
Fudge is yummy... maybe your not worth that word
Erm...
Whatever, not in the mood to think of another word =]

I really dont understand people these days.
I get so confused.com
Maybe its me, maybe its not...
Rahhh

Its like, if you cant deal with the consequences, dont do something
All this, i didnt think it would hurt you so much...
Now theres a line ive heard everyday for the past few weeks...

Mmm, sooo
Havent blogged for a bit now
The weekend...
It was interesting, theres one way of putting it.

You know when you try, but it really fails?
Yeah thats what happened.

We tried, we really did.
But it really didnt work
All it resulted in was tears, awkwardness, cowards and shit.
Absolute jack SHIT.
No lie.

But you know, apart from that, it was actually one of the best days ive had in London.
Dragged people to Covent Garden =p
Had major loads of fun <3
Its like, you didnt expect it to be this fun, but it is.
That was the feeling.
I love that feeling ^^

WASABI, ITS OKAI YOU WERENT THERE
You werent to know <3

Thank you to those who were there for me:

Kerry
Kirsty
Ethan
Karmen
Crystal
Kelvin
Osagie
Nathan
Richie
Borui
Jason
KC

AHHAHA
I played PUMP for the first time...
No jokes, i got an A
HAHAH
On easy... (shhh)

Im not gonna talk too much about the negative sideee
I just cba with those people anymore
Lies, Rumours, Shit
WHATEVER :D

Sunday was a good dayy!
Was with Karmen =]
Then went home
Took me 2.5 hours to get home you knowww
Jeeeez
LOLL
BUTTTT
Was worth ittt ^^

Today, school was okaii =]
GOT FRESHERS TOMORROW
Gonna be bare cold in PJ's
Dads all wear a coat XD
Il look like a gay =_="

Either wayy

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My day was pretty good this morning ^^
Cold but good :D

School was okai =]
Was a bit confusing for me XD ><
But you know what im like, i get confused too easily all the time!

Was boiling at the end of the day
I finished school bare early though cos my critical thinking lesson was cancelled =p

Just now though, ive got killed by wasabi ><

He told me that hes gonna have to go back to America during December ><
Forever =[
Im really sad ><
And i know hes reading this, so imma tell him that imma cryy =[
Hes missing my birthday and EVERYTHING!
I hate him D=
Well i dontt, but yeahhh

Borui makes me laugh XD

Borbor: Wah you doin now cutie
Me: Eating biscuits ^^ Loool. What about you cuter?
Borbor: LOL, yh im jst on msn no.1 cutie
Me: Ohhh, your silly, eat some biscuits with me cutest ^^
Borbor: Yeh i wud love to my no.1 cutie :)
Me: We eat biscuits together! theyre from hawaii :P Haha <3
Borbor: Lool. Awww (L) My happy cute lil dappy

Looool
Were so lame? (Y)

And him bare saying "u get me"
Its like "yeh i get u"
Quote him
But then most of the time i get confused.com?
As i always do?
Everyone knows i get confused easily =[
LOL

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Todayy, Thomas Charles McFarland came round and it was soo good to have a catch uppp :D
Ate popcorn for lunchh (Y)

Then waited for family friends to come overr
Spent a day with them then went dinner.

Just came back!
Todays been a pretty bland day tbh.

Vid calling with Karmen atm
I love her :D

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Imma backhand her back to China.
No lie.
Allow making Karmen upset you know.
Fuckers.

Today started off really good!
I woke up at 11 (really early ><)
I did some hwww :D
Imma sucha good girlll =]
And then i waited for Keith to come overrr
Was so good seeing him again.
IVE MISSED HIMMMM <3
Hehehhe
SO MUCH PIZZA D=
No lie...
Wanted to die afterwards XD

My fingers still hurt T_T
Rarrrrr ><
But its okaii :D

Then, i just confronted people.
Dont you hate it, when they lie STILL
After theyve been exposed and you KNOW THEYRE LYING
Its like... completely no point.

And funny thing is, theyre all backstabbing each other, blaming each other to us.
Its like, BEST FRIENDS?! HAHHHAHA
Give over.

Karmen is being a gay and singing FUCK YOU on vid call XD <3
I actually love her.
Kirsty is here on msn with me =]
LOVE THEMM

People have been tryna beg from my mate...
Its like, dont lie about us being friends when were not just to get more friends that way.
Damn theyre dumb.
Its a bit like, stop being so maniipulative and naive.
And not to mention 2 faced!
Such bad liars, really, sucha bad liars.
No jokes.

Im so shattereddd.

Over and OUTTT

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Today has been a good day.

Well... first, i had englishh...
Doublee in fact.
It was good.
We read some more Heathcliff =]
I am in love with him <3
IT WAS FOUAD
I WAS SO SO HAPPY <3
Good times (L)

After school, i met up with Holly
It was so good to have a catch up after not seeing her for AGES.
I did some shopping ^^
It was good :D

Then it was time for:

FREDI'S SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY!

It was amazing seeing her! <3
I have missed her and Molly so so much.
She was so surprised when i turned up behind her XD
Made me giggle.
Took loads of pictures =]
YAYYYYY

Im actually freezing atm.
How is it so cold?
And i feel shattered D=
Gonna go bed sooon
Keiths coming over tomorrow =]

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I GOT ASSIGNED BIRTHDAY STICKER GIVER TODAY!
My job starts on Monday ;)
Basically, very Monday, when its assembly, i give everyone who has a birthday during the rest of the week, a sticker!
ISNT IT SO CUTE?!
And they might get hats too... =p
I was like I WANNA DO IT I WANNA DO IT! <3

Thorpe park really soon
Which means half term really soon!
Which means exams... even closer D=
Im soooo shitting myselff ><

All my hw and shizzle has been good so far, so much of it though.
Im doing psychology hw as we speak (or as i type)

People still need to confirm for TP... theyre bare taking their time..
Its so annoyinggg

WASABI IS SOO GAYYYYYYY
HE SAYS HE MIGHT BE IN "STEVENHENGE" (which sounds like stonehenge to me)
BUT YEAHH!
GAYYY POOOOO

Playing "Dont Wanna Miss A Thing" By Aerosmith on the piano is difficulttt
It makes my fingers tireddd =[

English was so good today, forgot my book, i gotta copy up all my notes o.O
Wuthering Heights was so shit at first
Its starting to get good now (that sounds really neeky...)
LOL
But yeahh, its getting really cute and romantic!
Just the way its meant to be ^^
UNTIL FUCKING PEOPLE BREAK IT UP
Fml...

Gotta maths test on Monday...
Jeez... im so not looking forward to it...
I havent revised much?
I SHOULD :D
But i cba ^^

Seeing Holly tomorrow for a catch upp, need ittt
Then its Fredi's birthday party, YAYYYY! <3
It also means a chance for me to go shopping! =p

I got married to Amin todayy
He asked me to make him tea, with THREE SUGARS!
His sugar levels ><
He said he usually takes FOUR D=
I was like... o.O
But anyways, i said i woulddd ^^
And then he said he liked it white and creamy ;)
Guess what else is white and creamy? HHAHA <3

ILoveKingYewKYChoo.
Hes probably reading this cos he said he wanted to be in it =p
YOUSMELLLLLLL <3

I feel like sushi :D

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GUESS WHAT I LEARNT TODAY?!

I learnt, that girls are more complex than boys!

Basically, when everyones in the womb of their mummy, we all start off as girls!
NEVER KNEW THAT DID YOU?! :D
NO (Y) - humour me here <3

Anyway, then girls grow their brains, whilst boys grow their ball sacks.
And there we have it, why girls are more complex than boys! :D

Learn something new everyday dont we?!

I believe that you learn something new everyday, whether it may be something big, small, interesting, boring, good, bad, happy or sad, its still something new.
Talking about things that i believe, i also believe that everything happens for a reason.
Ive probably mentioned this before ^o)
Oh well, i dont care ^^

I BELIEVE THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON! :D

Thing is, i know i say that, but then what are the reasons?
There are so many things which you cant explain or describe, it just happens, even though you know it happens cos theres a reason...
Complicated much ><

And OMG!
On the train today, i got chat up by a 14 year old...
Oml...
He was like some little chav and asked me for my number
I was like... no sorryy.
Then his mates like bare asking me where i go to school.
What the actual? =s
THEIR BALLS HAVENT EVEN DROPPED YET D=

I was fucking scared.
No joke.
No lie.
He was chavvy.
And scary.
><

I went MANBY LODGE today, its an infant school for little kids =p
THEYRE SO CUTE
I have a favourite...
I know im not meant to ><
But i dooo =s
Hes called Joel
Hes so so sweet
He kept kissing my hand
AWWW
Then he licked my hand
Not so AWWW
BUT STILL
HES SOOO ADORABLEEEE
*Steals*

I got bare hw D=
Wasabi's telling me to do it...
Im like... NO :D
Hw is so gay, i swear =_="

Its gayer than Rex <3
Who can i say, has THE cutest voice EVER when hes sleepy
AWWWW, i wanted to hug him bare last night over the phoneeee (L)
But i cant cos his pointy penis would fuck me up (N)
That would be bad.

ANYWAYSS
I got dinner timeeee

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Its the six.of.october.two.thousand.and.nine today!

School was okaii tbhh
Same old same old, got bare hw D=

Today, i was thinking, OMGSH!
YAYY!
Half term soon!
Then we have Christmas holidays!
But then i was like, OH SHIT, exams =_="
I am sooo not looking forward to them...

Back to a more serious subject.

Best friends...
Define to me best friends?

Theyre meant to be:

• Caring
• There for you
• Someone you can rely on
• Someone you can look up to
• Someone you trust
• Kind
• Wont betray your trust
• Honest

But now, i truly start to question those qualities, because recently, some best friends just:

• Betray your trust
• Lie to you
• Keep secrets from you
• Tell others to lie to you
• Tell others to keep secrets from you
• Go with "Dicks before chicks"
• Go with "Bros before hoes"
• Go with new ones instead of old ones
• Go with the more "popular" ones
• Ditch their friends for a party

But im not naming names yeah ^^

Honestly, is that what best friends are?
Because if they are, im not sure if i want best friends =s

Theres been the best friends who have never ever let me down.

These ones, im sure, will not do what others do:

• Kerry
• Kirsty
• Karmen
• Ethan

I love you guys and thank you <3

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Happy Birthday Kelvin Huynhnhnhnhnhnhnhnhn/HUHHHH/Hwin :D

Happy Birthday To You!
Happy Birhtday To You!
Happy Birthday Dear Kelvinnnn!
Happy Birthday To You!

生日快樂
希望你常常都很开心，没有什么问题
笑啊！ <3

Never forget to be you ^^

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Oh i just cant wait to be KING
Except for me, it would be QUEEN...

ANYWAY :D
Ive had a happy morning/afternoon
Karmen has been screaming down the phone cos of her "coon tails" SKEEN <3
Shes gonna cam with me after her hairs dried XD
Shes sucha gay (L)

Im meant to have done my Wilfred Owen Essay...
But i just really cba...
Cos tbh right, i got another 3 hours till im off to Kerry and Kirstys, surely i can do an essay in that time?
Oh god, now ive said that, i bet i cant ><
750 words...
FML
No one cares about the futility of a poem TBH =_="
Such gayss ><

I did my nails instead :D
Cos im that cool?
Why do hw when you can do your nail polish tbh =p

Im bare bored, like on msn, (I LOVE YOU GUYS WHO IM TALKING TO)
But im still bored...

JUST REMEMBERED ITS CHINESE MOON FESTIVAL TODAY!
中秋节!
YAYYY <3
大家吃一点月饼!

Anthony just told me that hes had like 6 mooncakes...
Wait no, he just told me that it was during the course of the past 2 weeks LOLL
OMG HIS MUM MAKES MOONCAKES! o.O <3
At mooncake festival in LDN XD
Trafalgar always has these obscene things doesnt it?

我不知道为什么，我开始喜欢在家里。
我可以做功课，可以和朋友谈话。
在家里，有一个很特别的感觉。
不能说出来。

今天是中秋节。
虽然我不喜欢吃月饼，但是我都喜欢中秋节的感觉。
大家都会很开心，没有问题。

我都希望没有问题，但是，不是容易啊！
有时，这个世界是很难， 但是，我们要面对。
很多人可以问，为什么要我不开心？
但是， 问题是可以帮我们的未来。

AFTER THAT! :D
Mehh, typing in chinese is fun.
All unchinese people wont get what i just blogged =p
I cba to translate ;)
Thats LONGGGG <3

Just know that issues arise and you face em
End of.

Over and OUTTT

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Carefree shizzle for me please.

I cant believe its the second.of.october.two.thousand.and.nine already...
Its gone so fast...
Soon, summer '10 will be here
Im not sure whether thats a good or a bad thing.
I need to contemplate that for a while.

I should be doing hw... but can i be fucked?
UMMM.... NO :D

I dunno
RARRRRR
Its all so much more difficult that it seems...
When other people see it, theyre thinking, my problems are so much more important atm, but if they were me, theyd understand.

Sometimes, i think i really need to follow my own advice.
I give all my friends advice, they come to me and im grateful that they trust me enough to do so.
And naturally, i try my hardest to help them, talk about it with them, give them advice on what to do...
But when it comes to my own relationships?
God... i get so confused so easily...

Its like, "Daphne, think about what you said to your mates, and imagine your your own mate..."
Doesnt work...
Im not joking, im actually deadly serious
My mates always say i give good advice and thank me.
Im so happy that theyre happy with the things i say and tell them, but then, with myself?
I get confused (cos i naturally get confused with everything anyways) but not only do i get confused, im lost.

Like i can literally not think, i just replay things again and again, over and over in my own head, and i just cant find a way out.
I dont know... usually, loasd of people are like, i give advice, so when i come to myself, its so easy
RARARARAR
Im so not like that.
With myself, i cant think.
I even have to imagine that im not me and imagine that im my friend...
Thats how stupid it is
How ridiculous =_="

I wish it was easier to figure things out for myself.
I wish it was as easy as it is when i help my mates.
They mean so much to me, i love being there for them because thats what they deserve, but its like, FUCK SAKESS, WHY NOT SAVE YOURSELF AS WELL YOU LOSER?!

Over and OUTTTT

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