Tuesday 31 July 2012

300712 ~ ♥

Why is it, that every time i start to forget, memories pop up behind me and scare me like a big fat ghost? T_T
Like today, i was in the car, going home, and somehow, this memory pops into my head: my mum was taking me and toby home from Kingston after wed had a day out together, and i was sat in the front, and he was in the back, and i slipped my hand like, to the back and he was holding my hand.
STUPID LITTLE THINGS LIKE THIS THAT MAKE MY FACE LIGHT UP T_T
But its like.. why is it making my face light up?!
Its a MEMORY that should be FORGOTTEN completely.
There is nothing for me where they are.
He left me, plain and simple.
And yet, i can't forget.
When will these stupid memories stop haunting me?


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Sunday 29 July 2012

290712 ~ ♥

So BLOGGYYY!
I am terribly sorry that i have not been blogging for the past few days, i have been rather busy!
The last time i blogged was before i went to jump in the pool for the first time!
Let me tell you, if you ever come to San Francisco, put a lotta sun lotion on!
Because i got burnt like a lobster T_T
AND NOW IM SUFFERING!
COS BEING BURNT MAKES YOU ITCHYYYYY :(
BUT YOU CANT SCRATCH COS IF YOU DO, YOU PEEELLLL! D=
But its cool man, cos i am having so much fun!
After swimming, we went to a shopping mall, where there was a Target, Forever 21, and a Hollister.
NOW LEMME TELL YOU SOMETHING, there is such thing, as a Hollister outlet in malls here.
Me and my two cousins went crazy and shopped so much!
7 things from Hollister, costing us a total of 83 something dollars!
Errr... WHY IS ENGLAND NOT LIKE THIS?!
Well, anyways, at this time, i had not fully experienced the wrath of the burn T_T
In fact, i didnt even know i was burnt D=
Then, we had dinner with Ling Jeh Jehs mammy and deddy, and then we got home, and i saw the wrath of the burn :(
IT WAS SO PAINFUL AND HOT D=
Like, id been feeling hot all day, but i didnt see the burn, so i didnt think i was burnt, SILLY ME ><"
Then half way through the night, Holly started saying she felt hot, and her head was all hot D=
So yesterday, whilst me and Alex were having fun going to the Tech Museum in San Jose, and Stanford University, Holly was at home resting.
We took lots of pictures for her though!
And being the good cousin i am, i bought her presents! ^^


SO YEAHHH, the Tech Museum was so fun and Stanford university is SOOOOO BEAUTIFUL!
I totally would've tried to get in if i lived here!
Maybe if i suddenly become a sports genius, il come here for my masters AHAHHA! >:]
At the Tech Museum, we went to this IMAX movie theatre that was in the shape of a dome?!
It was SOO COOL!
And at this point, i saw a movie about polar bears, and how hard it is to survive, and i felt really emotional all of a sudden ><"
Like, it made me think of TC, and at that point, i was determined to forget him, because this movie was sucha wake up call to everything thats happening in the world.
And that day, for a few hours, i was sooo happy!
Bare like, forgot about him.
But then, randomly, he pops up in my head, and i have no control over that.
Random ass things will make me think about him, and when i do think about him, its the worst feeling ever.
Its like, i forget all those things i thought before, where i didnt give a shit, and all those feelings of wanting to cry come backkk.


But yeah, i have to leave soon to go and see GOLDEN GATE BRIDGE!
I charged up my camera last night cos a day of seeing stuff literally kills the battery!
SO YEAH, il be taking lots of pictures today!


BAI BAI FOR NOW BLOGGYYY!


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Friday 27 July 2012

270712 ~ ♥

我现在在美国!
美国慢英国八个小时所以我们多了八个小时 ^^
我们的家好大啊, 有三个房和三个廁所
个泳池好可爱, 好似一个豆 ^^


BIG DOUBLE AMERICAN DOORS!




现在和我的表妹和表弟一起
我们今日六点以经起身, 我们吃了好大的早餐!
了多士和 cereal (我唔知道怎么写 cereal wakakaka)


我在美国没夠二十四小时, 但是以经吃了好多东西!
以定会變一个大胖妹回英国
天气唔是太好, 没有太多太陽, 也有一点冷, 真是


舅今晚在 Seattle 回来 San Francisco, 我们应该一起吃饭啊
又吃东西哈哈哈, 胖死我了


我今尺来美国, 唔知道为什么挂住你
但是, 我好想忘记你, 因为我唔应该为你唔开心
我根本唔应该 覺得你对我是重要的!
你去香港以经忘记了我, 所以现在, 我要忘记反你!
但是唔是为你, 是为我自己的!
我唔要你了!
如果我想起你, 我一定会打死我自己 T_T


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Thursday 26 July 2012

260712 ~ ♥

Im flying today to the states.
Would you miss me if we were still together?
Would you miss me like i miss you now..?


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Wednesday 25 July 2012

250712 ~ ♥

I JUST deleted al my texts from you on my phone.
I had already deleted all my saved texts from you, but today, just now, about 2 minutes ago, i deleted our text conversation.
Im not gonna lie, it was about 10000 messages long..
They've accumulated over the years.
And well, it took so damned long for my phone to delete the whole conversation.. ><"
But now, its done.
Done and dusted.


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Tuesday 24 July 2012

240712 ~ ♥

You are officially still stuck in my head.
Is this what you wanted?
Are you happy now that I'm like this?


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Monday 23 July 2012

230712 ~ ♥

I guess you aren't back yet..
And i guess you won't be back before i leave for the states on thursday.
I guess again that i won't be seeing you until after the states.
Thats probably what you wanted.
I hope you're happy that you finally got what you want and that you're happy now.


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230712 ~ ♥

今日好唔开心, 但是不是因为平时的东西
我唔知道应该点念..
我个脑好乱啊, 什么开心的回忆都乱了
为什么我个心还是好挂住你, 也放唔开你啊?
求你放过我啦, 我个心唔可以接受啦
我好挂住你啊, 你几时先会知道你是一个蠢猪啊?!


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Sunday 22 July 2012

220712 ~ ♥

Officially cant wait to leave this country for 3 weeks.


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220712 ~ ♥

Currently sat in my messy house all by myself.
Ive realised, sometimes, even when you're with people, you can feel so lonely.
MT, KL#2, WP and AW are drunk as skunks and RO is wanting to smoke.
So they've all gone to the garden, to hopefully not wake up my neighbours.
KL#2, IF YOURE READING THIS, you are so fucking loud its unreal.
I can hear you in my garden and that is so far away..
Kill me now, my neighbours are gonna kill meeeee mannnn!
I said i wasn't gonna drink and i haven't, how good am i?! ^^"


Even whilst they're all here, i feel kinda lonely, like my hearts a bit empty.
I don't understand why i feel this way, i really shouldn't.
Like, i should feel so, so happy!
Buttttt.. this is the not the damned case, and to be honest, i hate myself for thisss.


ON THE OTHER HAND, to make things better, only 4 days until i go to america!
I can't wait!
WOOOOOOOOOO!


我剛才記得我们今日应该是我们第二十二个月一起, 但是现在没有啦
二十二号, 第二十二个月, 一念十个月.
以经没有了.
我好想放开你, 但是, 我个心唔知道为什么放唔开
我今日好挂住你, 也好想见你
但是我唔是常常都這樣念, 其實, 我有时好唔喜欢你, 好想唔会再见到你/
但时, 如果我现在以经挂住你, 我有什么可能不想见你啊?
你根本知唔知到我还喜欢你啊?
我唔开心都唔知到真么样?
殺了我好过啦!


Anywayss, the others are back now so il talk to you later bloggyyyyy.
BAIBAI


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Saturday 21 July 2012

210712 ~ ♥

Currently at work and its my last dayyy!
Gotta bit tipsy last night ><"
But then i sobered up and everything was finee ^^
Seriously, drinking is no fun, i dont get why people so it so muchhh, im just gonna watch the others drink tonight and be all so hing hahahha =p


One sec bloggy, gotta do some stuff for the staff at work, type more later!


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210712 ~ ♥

Eurghhh drank too much for my liking today :/
Felt physically sick even if my head wasnt spinning like crazy D=
I feel like gagging just thinking about that lime smirnoff D=
But i didnt throw up, nor did i get properly emotional! ^^
Needa sleep, got work tomorrow :(
Then definitely no drinking after that!


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Friday 20 July 2012

200712 ~ ♥

Im currently at work, so dont mind the ugly post bloggy!
The weather is sooo nice right now, all sunny and breezy at the same time.
A few hours ago, it was like, pouring with rain like there was no tomorrow..
I swear, english weather is bipolar to another level.
But the weather at the moment, makes me properly think about TC.
It makes me imagine us holding hands, walking along the road, or going shopping together, or complaining it was too hot cos we were cuddling in bed whilst watching a movie and it felt like africa in there, or being extra boiling cos we were doing stuff that represented the heat of Hong Kong! ><" *cringeworthy thoughts*
But the thing is, those times were so good when they were happening!
Rawrrr does that mean that when im in the states, il be thinking about him? :/
Hopefully not, cos il be inna different country! ^^
Yesssss!
Time to put that bumhole behind me and think of him as the past!
If hes already done this months ago, then its time i should be getting a wiggle on too!


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200712 ~ ♥

HAIII BLOGGYY!

Firstlyyy, id like to wish Ethan Wong a very happy birthday!
He's hit the big 20 today!
DAMNNNN WERE ALL GETTING SO OLDDD ><"
Tomorrow, it'll be 5 months till i turn that age!
Omg, some milestone, I'm telling you, imma be depressed assess that day hahaha!


Im listening to SHINees japanese album atm, and i swear Minho hardly gets any lines which is really awks ><"
This is awks cos Taeminie used to hardly get any lines eitherrr, but then his singing got SOOO much better!
And he sings like the first line of quite a few of their songs now!
LIKE, THE OPENING LINE! :D
Like, I'm not even being biased right?
But it has gotten so much better, everyone says so!
And so he's gotten more lines, but its not like Minhos a bad singer, so whys he getting like one individual line per song?! D=

But omg, another thing, last night, i was on Skype with MT, AW and WP.
Ohmylife, i havent laughed this much for SOOO LONGGGG.
I literally couldn't breath for like half the time.
Randomly, i decided to go onto google translate and like, speak to them from there, like type stuff, then press the speaker.
Then MT suddenly typed in TROLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL and then translated it into chinese and then pressed play!
OMG, bloggy, if only you could try it!
Maybe one day when you can, you'll see how funny it was!
Its like, O AH LO O AH LO!
LOOL, omg its hard to describe it, you should just try it okai?!
I peedddd hahahahhahah!

Next story:
I just showered and feel very hot cos the water was too hot :/
Well.. i showered like an hour ago, and then i washed the dishes, and the water was boiling hot, so I've just stayed this temperature T_T
ITS SO HOTTTT D=
Im currently sat in my room in the dark blogging, LOL, how emo of me T_T
Nahh, I'm just too lazy to switch the light on, that cannot be good for my eyes huh? ><"
LEMME GO TURN ON THE LIGHTS, ONE SECCCCC!

Okaii, lemme tell you a story about my morning so far bloggy!
I woke up and showered, and then i walked out my shower to do the dishes!
I did the dishes and then like, when i was washing the glasses, it made squeaky noises, and this reminded me of TC.
HOW, you ask, CAN NOISES ON GLASSES REMIND ME OF HIM?!
Il tell you bloggyyy, it happens when a boy casts a spell on you.
A magical spell okai?
A spell that makes you stay in love forever *sigh*
SO YEAHH, thats how!
And then, after that, i walked back into my bathroom, and i could smell him..
Like, his smell, it like, hit me like a bus.
I was like, OMG WTF?!
WAS HE IN MY BATHROOM CASTING MORE SPELLS OR SOMETHING?! LMAOOO!
AH WELLS! ^^

I have so much trash to take out :/
But imma make MT, WP, AW, RO and KL#2 take it out with me >:]
Cos I'm still in my pjs, so i can't exactly go out can i? T_T
The trash bins are so FAR AWAYYYY!

Im wondering, did i completely misjudge him bloggy?
Like, i thought he was such a great guy, but his actions recently suggest different..
Am i that bad of a judge of people?
Usually, my judgement skills are really correct..
Does love really make you blind?
Did he just go along with the relationship towards the end just so he could end it on a happy note for himself?
Is he that selfish?
Id like to think that my judgement was right, and that he's having like, a brain dysfunction atm or something..
But i can never be sure, maybe this is just how he was, and i was wrong.
Ottokae?!

Anyways, time to do another vlog, i am on this!
WAKAKKAKAAKA ^^

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Thursday 19 July 2012

190712 ~ ♥

NAOOOO, the watch that I've wanted for ages isn't even available at Westfield San Francisco :'(
Il have to get it online but I'm freaking out that it won't be online by the time i can order it.
*SIGHHHH*


我今日好挂住你啊
唔知到你上次挂住我是己时了
念一念, 你都应该没有念我很久啦!


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190712 ~ ♥

Its taken less than 2 months for you to get over me.
Am i that easily forgotten?
I guess maybe i am, I'm just disposable to you.
2 years, and its come down to being forgotten in less than 2 months.
Rightttt then.


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190712 ~ ♥

So, in exactly what tone did you say it in?
Im genuinely curious.
Because if you said it any other tone than what i imagine, then imma beat you up.
Like, why would you even say it?
Aishhhhh, why am i caught under this stupid ass spell of yours?
ARE YOU SECRETLY POTTER CHOW?!
Omggg, thats totally what you are isn't it?!
You cast a magical spell on me to make me unable to fall out of love with you, and now i am hopelessly caught up in this silly situation! D=
But seriously, i need to sort this out, this is doing my head no good.
My brains figuratively splattered all over the walls, and i need it back in my head to continue living my life like a normal person T_T
In what universe do i deserve this?! T_T
Take one step at a time Daphnee!
Take one day at a time, HWAITINGGG!
加由!


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190712 ~ ♥

Oh my life bloggy..
I swear my phone took sooo long to charge!
And now im blogging from my phone, it cant be doing my battery any favours!
Proper using the battery up right after i just finished charging itt ><"
But now imma sleep cos im all huddled up in bed!
Nighttt!


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190712 ~ ♥

LADIES AND GENTLEMAN, LET ME PRESENT TO YOU, THE ONE AND ONLY, EXCITED DAPHNE CHEUNG!
*i run out onto stage*
LOL i have no clue what I'm talking about, BUT WHO CARES?!
ONE WEEK UNTIL AMERICA!
Only one week left! :D
I am uber excited and uber happy and JUST CANNOT WAIT!


I wanted to buy a watch from Michael Kors, and CT said shed help me get it cos she went to LDN, but then, in the shops, it was so damned expensive?!
And in america, online, its like, half the stupid price?!
So imma wait till i go to america! ^^
Isn't it beautiful?!


Isn't it beautiful?! :)




I miss TC, to the point that i burst into tears today and i couldn't stop crying for so long and i was crying so long.
I went through my notes whilst putting them on my laptop.. BAD IDEA.
I wanted to die..
I missed him so badly and i just wanted to be in his arms, be cuddled, and have him tell me it was okai and kiss my forehead.
He used to do that you know..
He used to tell me how much he needed me and how much he loved me and missed me, and that he wanted to hear my voice so badly, and that he wanted to see me, and that just a glimpse would make him happy and smile..
At the beginning of uni, when he hated it so much, he told me that he apologised for anything stupid he'd do in the future.
Is this one of the stupid things he'd do?
He told me that he knew wed get through anything together, and that he wanted to be with me always and forever.
He also said that as long as i was his, then he'd be okai.
Id like to think that i helped get him through his first of uni, especially when he was struggling so much at the beginning.
But now its like, he's used to uni and thinks he can manage it on his own, and he's lost sight of everything before..
Like, if he has figured it out, and does think he can manage on his own, then good for him, thats a good thing.
But that doesnt mean you can just ditch me..
Unless you just really stopped loving me.
Aish, i dunno what to think anymore these days. 
All i know is, tonight, it hurt so damned much ><"
Crapppp, am i really incapable of being happy without you?!
*Sighs* I shall totally forever be doomed from this moment on ><"
NAOOO, i refuse! T_T
*hmphhhh*
WHYS STUFF SO HARD?! :'(
BUTTTT, after i stopped crying, i realised it was only a week until america, and you know what TC?!
SCREWWWWW ITTTT!
Screw it all, because, I AM GOING TO THE STATES AND I AM HAPPY HAPPY HAPPYYYY! ^^


My phone needs to hurry up and finish charging that silly 8%!
Im kinda tired T_T


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Wednesday 18 July 2012

180712 ~ ♥

Currently importing pictures from my phone onto my laptop because frankly, i don't have anymore space on my phone T_T
And i think its about time i to rid of all TC related things on my phone.
So they're going nicely away in a folder somewhere, where i won't always look at them! ^^
Plus, i seriously need the space for america cos i am gonna go CRAZYYY taking pictures!
I have over a thousand pictures on my phone..
It does no good for the speed of it T_T
This is a long ass process though!

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180712 ~ ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAEMINIEEE!
My leng jai lo gong ^^
生日快樂
생일축하!
사랑해요!


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Tuesday 17 July 2012

170712 ~ ♥

I still cant sleep cos my stupid head has too many stupid thoughts with TC in it.
My hearts aching with so much pain right about now.
When will this feeling stop?!


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170712 ~ ♥

都是睡唔到
我现在好挂住你啊
你为什么唔挂住我啊?!
你是唔是忘记了我啦?
我永远都唔会忘记你.
你永 远都是我最爱的 baby.


现在我的中文写的好亂, 但是, 我个腦都很亂, 所以你要给我一点耐心啊 bloggy!


有时我跟自己说: 唔好你啦
我跟我说: 你已經忘记了我和你想在是我的, 但是我的心常常都好挂住你, 也好想知到你开开心..
你其實开开心了?
还是你都开心也好挂住我?
念一念, 你都是会挂住我了, 我都知到我應該幻想啦
为什么我可以放开你?
为什么我唔可以放下你?
我怎么办?!


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170712 ~ ♥

Cant sleep but i need toooo ><"
Going to the bank this morning feels like so long ago, when it was only like less than 12 hours ago..
How weirdly time passes.. *sigh*
Now i gotta wake up at 10 tomorrow, well today, to go to the bank again cos i really want to buy stuff online :(
This is the worst!
HWAITING DAPHNE, lets charge on like a soldier!


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170712 ~ ♥

HEY BLOGGY!
I faced one of my fears today ^^
I just went on the virgin trains website, and i totally checked time prices for CT.
I know that sounds soooo gayyy, BUT, i used to use this website once a week booking tickets to see TC..
And lets just say, i associate the website with buying tickets to Sheffield.
BUTTTT, just now, i was uber bored, and i thought fuck ittttt, totally gonna go on it and face one of million fears!
And i did it!
So this is me saying:


MEHRONGGGG!


But i still hated it T_T
Sooo, no progress there!
Guess i won't be using that website ever again in my life..
Il have to use old caveman ways to figure out train times, like count them daily or something..


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Monday 16 July 2012

160712 ~ ♥

When you said you had 'maybe maybe not' bought me a late birthday card, i got all stupid and thought that you had but were tryna be all misleading on purpose as a joke..
Now im not too sure..
Did you already know at that time that youd break up with me and so you didnt actually buy one?
But if you had already known you were gonna break up with me then why didnt you just do it instead of leading me on?
And just making my life this much more hell like now?
And that night when you were in Bham, and we were tryna sleep, and i got upset and scared at something, and i was knelt on the floor crying and i couldn't stop.
And you told me to get into bed with you and to stop crying.
So i did, and you cuddled me close and told me that there was nothing to be scared about cos you weren't gonna leave me.
You lied didnt you?
Did you already know then that you were gonna break my heart?
I guess il never knoww..


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160712 ~ ♥

I had something to write bloggy, my innermost feelings.
But now I've forgotten them cos I'm watching Glee and i feel like i can't express them properly atm :/
I can't believe I've forgotten my own thoughts ><"
Ahhh wells, maybe il remember soon.. or maybe not..
Maybe its better for me not to remember these types of thoughts though..
I miss him today.


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160712 ~ ♥

Suddenly remembered again that you didnt freaking reply.
To be fair, i don't think I'm pissed and upset that you didnt reply, its the fact that thats just plain rude.
Like, even if you don't wanna be together anymore and don't love me, then fine.
But we should at least still be friends, or dyu hate me that much?
If we were still friends, then at least you'd still reply saying thank you or something?
Its common courtesy no..?
Or dyu not have that? :/


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160712 ~ ♥

Damnnn bloggy, i just did some super speedy work!
The nice taxi man said that he'd wake for me whilst i was in the bank so that he could take me back home too! ^^
Whatta nice man!
So i was in and out of the bank in about 3 minutes!
HOW SPEEDY AM I?! :D
I left the house around 37 past and i am now home by 54 past!
Well, it would be more grammatically correct if i said 23 to and 6 to, but then that would be confusing!
So yeah, it took me like 17 minutes to go there, and get back, plus do my bank stuffs!
NEW WATCH HERE I COME! ^^
Thats my newest record of leaving and coming back the fastest ever.
Even faster than the time i went to TCs and came back in like 20 minutes..
Yeah, again, lets not go there.


NOW MY CHORE FOR THE DAY IS DONE!
I am now waiting for my delivery from Tescos! ^^
YAYAYAY!
Then i have work!
I haven't even eaten lunch yet :/
Ottokae, what should i eat?!
Might make myself a sausage and cheese mcmuffin, but i have no ketchups ><"
And the thing is, i only need a tiny little bit for the flavour ><"
SO SADDDD!
RARRRR, anyways, skyping the cuz bloggy!
Talk to you laterrrrrr!
Maybe after work? ^^


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160712 ~ ♥

Okai, so I'm not used to getting taxis round here..
Ive only ever got it once and that was the day where i went to TC's last month..
So... Yeah..
Anywaysss, in Bham, you can call em and they'll be there in around 5 minutes..
So i called the taxi service today?
And they were like, they'll be there in 20 minutes hopefully.
I was like.. are you being forreal?!
Now imma have to be super speedy at the bank and do some super speedy money transferring and *CRYYY*
But its okai, i shall soldier onnnn!
Cos i am a soldier.
And my hair is so gross today T_T
But i figured out that il just wash it after work cos i have work.. and I'm seeing AS tomorrow and allow having to wash it again when work makes it dirty anyways, SO YEAH.


The weather is shitty today and is making me feel sad T_T
What is this atrocity?!
Pathetic fallacy yet again?!
But then again, it may be pathetic fallacy daily cos the weather is shit daily.
Seriously, its so crappers.
I miss him so much today, i don't even have a clue why.
All i know is i woke up thinking about our memories, and it just suckeddd to another level.
Like.. how last time i wanted a tattoo outta some tattoo vending machine, you know those fake ones you put on with water?
Hahaha, I'm lame, leave me alone.
And they had one in the cinema and he'd gone in to borrow their toilet, the tramp T_T
Wakkakaka! ^^
And then he came out and i was like, i want oneee, and he was like, you serious? I was like.. nooo.. and he was like, aww beee, and gave me some cutie smile and pulled me close and kissed my forehead ><"
*CRIESSS*
And how he'd always grab my hand and when we were shopping, he'd come up to me and wed walk out the shop together holding hands.
And just all these memories are like.. in my head.
Im thankful for them, but in a way, they're like haunting me.
They hurt me, and make me sad, because however thankful i am for them, its like, something il never have with him again.
And thats truly the worst.
I see all these Tumblr posts and they do truly make me think.
Tumblr is my thinking place you see..
Among many other places right now..
Simply cos there is THAT much that clutters my brain ><"
Was our relationship failing and i didnt realise?
Was i too in love to realise that the love wasn't reciprocated?
Was he being fake all this time?
Maybe if i was skinnier, or prettier, then maybe he'd have wanted to stay?
I dunno, i think irrationally these days, i have no rational thoughts in my head.
My dignity of thoughts has failed me *sigh* :/
The words: 'this is the end for us' will forever haunt me.
I just know it.
Even after I've moved on, and am happy with someone else, these words will still haunt me.
They'll haunt my brain until the day i die.
Not because they're such horrible words, well, they are..
But not cos of that reason, but because i just never wanted to hear them from him.
Even though were not together anymore, he still has a grasp on me and tugs at my heart strings.
Please leave my heart strings alone :(
They can't take it anymore :(


Over and OUTTTTTTTTT


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