MY GOD, I CANT BELIEVE MY UNI COURSE STARTS IN THREE WEEKS.
OHMYBUDDHAAAAAAAA!
Uber excited/nervous/whatever feelings can be felt.
Eurghhhhh.
Just now, i told AS that whenever she tells me that ive ditched SHINee for TC, it actually upsets me.
And i think now, shes upset with me...
Which is really awks cos i was just tryna be honest.
Like, it honestly does hurt.
Its happened a few times now, where ive felt so shit for "ditching" SHINee.
Like, thats not even the main thing, i just dont want her to hate me over something she thinks ive done.
Like, she keeps apologsing.
I dont want her to, i just want her to not like hate me.
It feels like she dislikes me for it but wont say it directly and just says that to get it out.
But its not even the case, i still like jizz over them, i just dont talk about it as much.
And now i feel really crap cos it feels like ive upset her, but i was honestly just tryna be honest with her.
Like, i dunno, but now i feel crap.
I should just shut my mouth.
Skeen.
I will never talk again in my life T_T
What is wrong with me?
This isnt what friends do.
But then, i cant help how i feel and i actually get upset by it.
Eurghhh alloww lifeeeeee.
Now shes not responding.
Oh nooo, this is the worst ><"
Talking of this is the worst, i think EY is a gay.
He doesnt even realise how amazing she is and hes just a gay.
He bare like talks to her sometimes, then doesnt talk to her sometimes, then makes it feel like he likes her, then doesnt.
Then like, WHAT DOES HE WANT?!
Eurghh, i am mad at him.
Someone else im mad at?
My mother.
My god.
I cried so much today.
Shes practically forcing me to go ask Brunel if i can still go.
EVEN THOUGH I TOLD HER I DONT WANNA GO OHMYGOD.
I told her i wanna go Bham.
But apparently she doesnt get it.
I cant take this stress mann!
Now she wants me to go to Brunel and talk to them personally?
Is she FORREALLL?!
Mmm...
But good things;
I HAD NANDOS TODAY ^^
That made me happy.
SOMETHING ELSE?!
DADDY GAVE ME CAKE.
It was his birthday yesterday, so he had loads of cake!
Ummm...
Then OH YEAH
I told my mum about me and TC last night, and she was completely fine with it o.O
Like, she talked to me about being careful and stuff, but shes completely fine and is letting him come over and stay over?
I was like, wow, who are you and what have you done with my mum?
But hehh, im happy ^^
I UPDATED THE PICTURES AND MUSIC ON MY PHONE SO YAY MEEE ^^
So i have a new background now so its all good in the hood :)
OH YEAH
Ive finished writing letters for 2KL, AB, AS, RK already :)
Ive just gotta write TC's now.
Im also thinking of starting on their presents because im lame but im just cool like that at the same time ^^
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDYYY <3
I love you forever and ever and ever ^^
I hope you had an amazing day today and allow you having work :(
SUN TAI GEEN HONG AHHHH! <3 <3
Its a frigging weird life this.
The past few days have been weird.
So on Friday, TC had his theory test, sooo, i woke up bright and early to go meet him in Kingston.
I was sat in Maccys on my onesies whatsapp'ing ST and waiting for him with 2 hashbrowns LMFAO ^^
Then we shopped for a while and i chose tshirts for him for uni :)
I have impeccable taste (how dyu even spell impeccable?)
Anyways, then we went back home and watched Hercules cos hes a loser <3
Hes honestly a loser =p
An 18 year old boy wanting to watch Hercules, its cute though :)
Then it rained, and we kissed in the rain cos were just cool like that ^^
It was the best!
Bleh then i had work after that, and it was quite busy i guess, couldve been better thoughh.
Thennn Saturday...
I did nothing
LOL
Imma frigging loser.
I sat at home all day drama'ing till work ^^
Then after work, i drama'd more!
Then after midnight, it was daddys birthday.
YEAHYEAHYEAH!
So we cut a cake, and i gave him his card and present :)
Then we drama'd together till 5am..
LMFAOO
EVEN THOUGH WE HAD TO WAKE UP AT LIKE 10! D=
Then at like, 7am, the doorbell kept ringing T_T
And i thought it was a dream at first LMAO!
Then it kept going and i was like, wtfff?!
So i went to open the door and its my mum?
I WAS LIKE, THE HELLLLL?!
And i was like, dad, mums home?
Then she kept talking to me...
Whilst i was tryna go back to bed?
And im like.. THE FUCK BRUV?!
Eurgh, got well pissed T_T
Then my dad woke up and was like, i had a strange dream that you told me mum was home!
And i was like... it wasnt a dream, shes actually home..
And hes like whut?
I was like, go look in my room...
AWKS LMFAOOOOO <3
Then we went out to yum cha and had haagen dazs after ^^
YUMYUMYUM.
OH THEN I GOT HOME AND FINISHED AUTUMN CONCERTO.
It was amazingg and the kid is actually the cutest!
And the girls so pretty, and the guys do'able at some angles LMAO :)
I told TC that my mum came home this morning and i think he got a bit worried..
I dunno, hes been kinda quiet tonight, i guess people have their days right?
He says everythings okai, but i think hes kinda worried that my mums home.
Im worried that my mums home.
Like on one hand, im glad she came home cos im like, its my mum.
But then on the other hand, cos she doesnt know about TC, it means that he cant come over and stuff, and its just awks.
It makes life so much more difficult.
And like, whereas my dads so cool with this stuff, my mum is like, the complete opposite, so its like, the WORST.
But i dont even care, im still gonna see TC.
We go to uni soon, so i gotta see him as much as possible before we leave.
Eurgh, this sucks so much.
What am i gonna dooo? :(
*Cries*
Meh, well figure something out.
I hate how hes gone all quiet :(
It makes me feel really uncomfortable.
Its the worst :'(
Probably gonna tell my mum about TC tonight though, wish me luck.
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Currently 02:48am...
What am i still doing up?
I am tired as, which is weird cos i napped from 8 - 10pm...
I bare ate dinner at like midnight LOL! ><
Me and TC hardly texted much today, we were both busy.
I missed him but he seemed a bit distant today.
But he has days like that, so i guess its okai.
Its just a feeling i have.
Sometimes, it seems like hes happier with me when we dont have a title on us..
Maybe he hates the pressure.
Well i know for sure he hates the pressure and criticism.
Everyone has their reasons.
Well.. tomorrows a new day!
I honestly miss him mega amounts, but i saw him like, 2 days ago.
Maybe i should get used to it and think of it as practice for uni.
Aish what am i gonna do?
Ottokaeyoooo? :(
Mmm..
Im tired, gotta sleep soon, just a small post today ^^
Il leave you with something:
Omnomnomnom :)
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Ohmygod.
My mum is driving me crazy.
Its past 2am..
She calls...
She starts saying how the uni im going to is shit.
How its not high enough in the league tables.
How me being happy there doesnt matter if im not gonna get a job.
Eurghhh, its pissing me off to another level which i didnt even know existed.
She keeps saying how shes gonna come back to England at the end of the month.
I dont want her to come back till i leave for uni.
Honestly, whats the point?
Shes like, i gotta teach you what to pack...
Do i look like a 2 year old to you?
IVE GOT A FUCKING LIST FOR FUCKS SAKE.
And then im like, mum, its 2am in the morning and youre talking to me about this, why dyu even call this late.
And shes like, i knew you came back from going out..
I was like, that doesnt mean im still awake.
And she was like, but you are.
Im like, what if i was asleep, then you wouldve woken me up with some next ringing of the phone AT TWO FUCKING AM.
ARE YOU FORREAL?!
MY GOD, I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW.
I CANT DEAL WITH THIS.
CALLING AT 2AM, PROBABLY DISRUPTING MY DADS SLEEP AND THEN CHATTING ALL THE CRAP TO ME ABOUT MY UNI.
I CANT DEAL WITH THIS.
Then i was like, i cant deal with this.
And shes like, why are you getting so angry for?
AND IM LIKE, COS YOU THINK THAT HAVING A GOOD JOB IS EVERYTHING.
Honestly, she was like, whats the point in being happy when you have no money.
I DUNNO, I DONT WANNA BE FUCKING RICH AND BE DEPRESSED THOUGH.
SKEEEEEEEEEEN.
I WASNT EVEN GETTING MAD AT HER?!
I was properly calm and just like, tbh, why are you coming back so early and why are you calling so late?
IT WAS JUST A QUESTION MAN.
And shes like, you cant change my mind, im coming back.
And im just like, you know what yeah, youve gone for so fucking long, you might as well just fucking stay there.
I just want my dad to take me to uni and thats it.
WHATS THE POINT IN COMING BACK WHEN IM LEAVING?!
HOW ABOUT GO AWAY.
And shes like, you havent called me back in the past 2 days lalala.
And im like... I HAVE A LIFE.
IF YOU WANTED TO TALK TO ME SO MUCH THEN YOU SHOULDNT HAVE LEFT THEN SHOULD YOU?!
NO!
So shush.
Eurgh i am majorly pissed off.
I needa cry it all out.
Why is she sucha horrible person sometimes?
GHsiopabgaobgoabgoa.
CEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEBS.
BED TIME <3
Laptop shopping tomorrow with daddy and uncle hopefully :)
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Ohmylife, actually havent blogged in like, YEARS.
Honestly, its like i havent let out my feelings for TOO long.
Its weird though, its like, too much to blog out and i ceebs to blog it.
A lot happened during HK and a lot has happened since HK.
I should probably start on HK...
Same old HK, cheap cheap cheap ^^
Hot weather, good food, good shopping, pervy men, SAME OLD
IT REACHED 37 DEGREES
Sorry but how is that even possible?
But oh well, i guess i should be freaking used to it by now after going back every year!
Blogspot DIDNT work over there...
It was the worst.
It worked once..
Outta the whole 6 weeks..
OML it was so bad ><
ANYWAYS, i met a boy, JW.
Yeahhh, ive mentioned him in the post before.
But im most probably gonna skim over this subject very, VERY, and i mean, VERRYYYY briefly.
He was a nice guy :)
And im glad i met a friend like him.
It was good to spend time with my mama ^^
SPENT SIX FRIGGING WEEKS WITH AS, it was really too much >:]
Saw KL's hardly any times!
Theyre always with family, buts its cute :)
Saw IS a lot thoughh!
It was the best.
I went to SHEK OH with them...
And can i just say, i got burnt like a lobster.
At first, my mum put masses of sun cream on me, and i was like, IM NOT GONNA GET A TANNNNN!
Then i got home and literally i was a lobster.
Then as the days passed i got darker, and i started to peel, and yeahh, now i have the most obvious tan lines ever.
Its like my boobs are half black, half white :D
I WENT TO SEE RAYMOND LAM WITH KL.
OHMYGOD.
IM NOT EVEN JOKING.
RAYMOND FRIGGING LAMMM.
We were TOO excited and haps.
It was honestly the best.
Ive never seen KL so like crazy hehehehe :)
It was so good! ^^
But yeah, HK was great once again, when is it not?! :D
Mmm...
Back in England, i honestly had so much to fucking deal with.
Turns out TC read my emails to AW or RK, either one, about JW.
It was the WORST.
Im not even kidding.
During HK, i emailed TC happy birthday, not expecting a reply.
Well, he replied.
And i thought, im not gonna reply, he told me to get over him and thats what imma do.
Well anyways, one day, TC starts saying really horrible stuff about JW.
ARGH JIZZ MY DAD JUST GAVE ME FERRERO ROCHER PROFITEROLES <3
AND HES GIVEN ME NOODLES.
MMMM OMNOMNOMNOMOMONMNOM ^^
Anyways...
Food seriously distracts me, honestly, it gets me every timeee!
Mmm...
Yeah so then we talked about shit, as in me and TC and he said he still likes me..
At that point, it was really hard to know whether to believe it or not.
Like, its happened twice now, surely its gonna happen again.
Well then he came over after i got back from HK
And we talked and i cried, and yeahh...
ANYWAYS, then results came...!
And most of us got where we wanted to go :)
Im so proud of all my friends, theyre honestly the best.
I know that wherever they go and whatever they do in the future, theyll do it to their full potential.
And i just hope that they wont forget me.
All the unis that were going to are really spread out.
Theres KL whos like, in Southampton.
Then a bit norther is JF in good old Kingston.
Then up a bit and WP is in Brunel.
Then theres AB in Loughborough.
And a bit norther its me in Birmingham.
Then even norther its MH in Keele.
Even norther is TC in Sheffield.
Tiny bit up is AS in Hull.
And then theres RK whos just all the way up north in Newcastle!
Were so spread across the UK, we could take a summer and do like a round trip of England! ^^
But yeah, now me and TC are us again.
I dunno, its weird, every time it seems different.
But i told him if he fucks up this time, then theres no going back.
I told him that if he messes up, there wont be another chance for him and he can fucking stay single for the rest of his life.
And that if hes playing me, then il kill him.
And whats odd is, we became us on the 22nd again..
SOMETHINGS WITH US AND THE 22nd.
But this time round, were less on it.
Were just kinda calm and cool about it.
And seeing as were going to uni soon..
It seems like its gonna be really hard.
But he told me this morning that he thinks that we can do it, that he thinks it can work.
I really wanna trust him and be able to have him trust me back.
And i really do want this to work.
And i know he feels the same way.
Its gonna be difficult, were gonna be like, an hours train journey away.
But were gonna try, and well be okai.
Were gonna try our hardest to be us <3
Absence makes the heart grow fonder right? ^^
Of course i have my worries, its not gonna be easy, but if you want something to work, you gotta work for it.
Im not even lying.
MMM...
I went to LDN today to meet MT, RO and WP.
I love my girlies <3
I went to Abercrombie to buy some jumpers and stuff for uni :)
Talking of uni, we were sat in Costa for like, 1941794 years and we were talking about it.
And cos me and WP are going to uni this year whilst MT and RO are just going to start year 12 in September, there was a lot to talk about :)
We honestly just sat there and just chatted for ages, it felt good to have a catch up with them ^^
Not like, a proper catch up about our own separate lives and stuff, but like, we were just talking for ages!
It was like, about education!
The two younger ones are so cute, its like, even though theyre still young, theyre already thinking about uni and how like, theyre so excited for us.
And when theres holidays, theyre gonna come stay with me in my room cos at uni we dont get half term! ><
But like, talking about it made me all excited!
Im like, so, so excited for it, but im also shitting myself and completely utterly nervous about it because obviously its a massive change.
Im not gonna be living at home anymore...
Whilst for the past 3 years ive had dinner on my own practically every night, and ive had to take up the responsibilities that my mum should have cos she went to HK for so long, its gonna be so weird being with people every day...
Every day il wake up and be with my friends.
Il go to lectures and seminars with my friends.
Il be hanging out with my friends after lessons.
And then il be with my friends up to the moment i sleep.
Mmm.. Im nervous because im scared i wont be able to make new friends, THANK GOD I HAVE CT, KY and KC coming to BHAM CITY with meee! :D
Im so, so excited to be with them :)
CANT WAIT TO SPEND GIRL TIME WITH CT! ^^
I wish MC wouldve applied to BHAM CITY tooo!
Talking of BHAM city, i went with my dad and uncle the other day.
Bloody hell, the drive there made my bum so freaking numb!
I was just like, oh my buddha, owwww.
It took like 2 hours.
But getting there it made me excited.
I mean the campus isnt amazing and its quite old in places, but nevertheless, being there like hit me and i was like, im actually going to uni..
Im gona be honest, i am gonna miss my daddy like crazy.
And im worried about him cos tbh, hes not getting any younger.
Hes turning 70 this Sunday...
Its a big birthday.
But im sure hell be fine :) <3
But yeah its hit me that im going to uni.
The past like, 4 years (thats when you start thinking about uni tbh) has gone SO quickly.
And suddenly now, im 18 and off to uni.
I honestly cant believe it.
Its like hit me but not properly, as in it still hasnt sunk in properly.
I think by like 2 weeks time, il be like OMGG!
Then when im packing, il be like this is it...!
My mums coming back at the end of this month, im not really sure how i feel about it.
I guess its good cos then it means that she can clean the house and shit whilst im not at home so my dad doesnt have to do it
But i dunnoes, its weird.
Its like, whats the point in coming back now when im going to uni and you wont see me anyways...
Its like, completely pointless.
But whatever makes her happy tbh, i ceebs.
RAWR IM SO TIRED ><
I blogged quite a bit tonight.
NIGHTNIGHTBABIES <3
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