Dear bloggy,
Its been 6 days..
How much longer do i have to wait?
What if in this 'period of time to [himself]' he forgets about me, doesnt want me, and starts to think that he's better off without me, or like loses feelings for me?
Like whatever he's going through, and needing time to himself,
DAMNN, doorbell just rang, i have seriously been watching TOO many dramas..
I proper hadda heart attack thinking it was him.
It was the postman.. HAHAHAHA
LOL WHUT, seriously dramas give girls such false hope and high expectations hahahaha ^^"
Whatever he's going through right now, i think he just needs time, but i really hope he still loves me, well he told me he did before he stopped texting, so thats good ^^
I just want everything to get better, and this to endddd.
And that hell text me soon all smiley and like my babyy <3
Maybe this kinda thing is making us stronger, you know what they say!
Just gotta get through it! :)
Plus, its not just with me, he's being quiet with friends too, like, i remember this happened last summer, when he didnt talk to JF or FH, and he broke up with me, i think sometimes, he just needs tim alone, and I'm okai with that now, il wait ^^
Im just glad that my other friends know how to give him space too, cos thats whats best right now :)
Oh goshhh ><"
Im just getting super paranoid, like, even I'm starting to get used to not texting him, not that that means i like him any less, but I'm just worried you know?
Worried that if he spends enough time away from me, hell start to forget me ><;"
Although i doubt feelings fade like that, we've been through that before, twice, and his feelings didnt fade.
You know, come to think about it, he's liked me for like.. 2 years o.O
Wowww, i cannot believe time flies like that.. Its crazyyy! Well, crazy good!
So I'm probably just being paranoid.
Paranoia is NOT GOOD!
Il just wait till daddy comes home from work tonight so i can talk to him about it, cos he always manages to make me smile.
Time to eat food!
Just thought id update you a bit ^^"
BAI BLOGGYY!
Over and OUTTTTTTTTTTT
♥
Eurghh, I'm kinda tired, but i need to rant.
I am so fucking pissed off atm, i want to cry.
But, its currently 01:35 and allowwww crying at this time cos you get nothing but swollen eyes and shit.
Ive never done anything to hurt him.
Ive never said anything mean to him.
So why is he being sucha dick and saying such hurtful things?
So, he asked CT to call me names on fb, and like, two words for you, how about, fuck you.
She's my best friend, she's not gonna fucking call me names on fb, are you fucking mad?
AGHFIaibaobaof.
Thats so dumb, like, i hate dumb people like that, who ask STUPID THINGS from people.
Like, 'don't tell her' - she's my best friend, of course she's gonna fucking tell me.
'Do this to her' - well thats not likely now is it?!
When we first met, we weren't great friends, but as the months went on, we grew closer, i started to trust you, to have faith in our friendship, but you're just a massive dick.
I thought we could be friends for a long time, but since when did you change so much?
Since when did you turn into sucha massive asshole?
I dunno what I've ever done to hurt you, well, to answer my own question, I've never done anything before.
I might have 'hurt' KY, but i never, and i repeat, never, hurt you.
You could call it sticking up for him cos he's your bredda, but if he was so hurt by me, then he would've come to talk to me himself.
I apologised to him, and since that day, he hasn't spoken to me since.
Did he really use your phone to text me?
Id like to believe that he did, cos then there'd be a reason for those hurtful things that were said.
And even if you were sticking up for him, then you don't have to be such a dick about it, bringing everything else in.
How immature can you be?
You know what, whatever, i cannot be fucked with such mo liew people.
ML was right about you.
He was totally right in saying you were a dick.
At first, i didnt wanna believe it, i thought, i can forgive this boy, even if he's hurt me, and even if he's being horrible, but you're beyond saving, and you're beyond being forgiven.
You don't even know what you've done, and you don't even realise that you've changed.
I dunno whats up with your life, but don't bring me into it.
You say that me and you are fine, and that we just don't talk as much as usual, but since when does fine mean, being horrible?
Last time i checked, the definition of fine was different.
You're a liar.
A massive liar.
Not only this thing, but driving away last time with CT and MC in the car.
Uncool.
I would never deliberately take your friends away from you.
And you said i was tryna take CT away from you.
How about shuttup.
You did that yourself, you killed your friendship yourself.
I had nothing to do with it, don't even try and put the blame on me.
She has become one of my best friends, but what of it?
Its got nothing to do with you.
I didnt become best friends with her due to pushing you guys apart, if thats how we did become friends, then it'd be some next fake friendship.
And i don't want any of those, aka you.
We became best friends cos we see each other practically every day, we laugh, we chat, we eat together, we watch movies, we can sit there in silence and not say or do anything and its fine, we miss each other when we don't see each other, we trust each other and we have fun, no matter what we do, we cheer each other up when the other is down and wed never make each other cry.
Now thats what friendship is.
I have friends who actually mean something to me, who i don't say and do horrible shit to.
You have some twisted definition of friend.
Just because CT doesn't wanna go somewhere, doesn't mean its got something to do with me.
Don't even get me started on how last time, she didnt wanna go clubbing then you spoke to me on the phone, ONLY to get me to go so that shed go.
DONT EVEN LEMME GO THERE.
My god, for dou lai ah.
Wanna kill something T_T
How can you just use someone like that? Why are you sucha massive dickhead of a friend?
And this time, she's got work, so why the FUCK are you bringing me into it, saying she has to call me names if she doesn't go?
What the fuck has it got to do with me?
'Are you dumb?' - quote you or KY.
Maybe you were always like this, but because we were all new friends, you didnt show this side of you.
I don't even know.
All i know is i don't wanna be involved in this shit anymore.
If you apologised, I know id forgive you, but until then, you mean nothing to me.
You have a disgusting personality atm, thats pretty much all there is to it.
Okai, so rant over, imma go sleep, wanna get these stupid ass thoughts outta my mind and wake up feeling freshhhh!
OVER AND OUTTTTTTTTTTT
♥
Haiii blogblog,
Okaii, so i was JUST lying in bed, and trying to type sideways..
That proved impossible and i had to type the first line like 10 times, so I'm now sitting up.
Look at what i do for you bloggy!
I woke up at 7:50am to Skype my uncle!
He said that he's gonna pay for my ticket to SF and that when me and my cousin get there, he's gonna give us a credit card so we can just spend whatever we want!
OHMYGOD, is this reality?!
This is way too good to be true.
I AM UBER EXCITED!
But i think imma save up the moneys for my massive splash out at Abercrombie >:]
IM SO EXCITED AHHHHHHHHHH! :D
Oh gosh I'm so sleepy ><"
I think thats why I'm also uber uber excited omgsh <3
But yeah, i woke up like 8471949 times last night.
Its like my head knows that I'm waiting for a text from baby, so i kept waking up to check if i had any, and i hadda text every time i woke up ^^ <3
He flew to Nice early this morning with his family, so he was texting me baiii :(
They're going for his mamas birthday, which to my knowledge, is tomorrow.
So, happy birthday mama chow! ^^
祝你: 生日快樂, 身體健康!
He's so lucky!
On my mums birthday, we eat cake..
LOOOOL!
We don't get to splash out for holidays all the time T_T
But its okai, i consider myself lucky anyways, i get holidays every years anyways :)
And plus, i always get to go to HK, so its all good in the hood!
My flatmates were SOOO loud last night, like, i get that it was Friday, but at 4-5am, they were just slamming their doors, talking in the corridor, and just being REALLY LOUD.
Stupid fobs.
I was so tempted to just go outside and be like, ohmyfucking god, why are you so loud?!
But my bed was too warm.
Talking of warm! It was sooo cold when i first got into bed!
It took forever to get the bed warm
Somethings up with the light in my room... Its flickering and won't switch on T_T
Its like one of those scary movie hostels T_T
SKEEEEN OMG.
Thank god its day time atm, or id be freaking out like crazy :/
Currently living in a holeeeee!
Haaaaa, provided i get my grades, IMMA BE LIVING AT COSMOPOLITAN.
Still can't get over it, so excited.
My god, the second half to this years gonna be good.
DAYUMMMMMMMM!
But yeah, i should really do some work today, otherwise i will be screwedddd!
Although.. Ive spent the past hour buying stuffs on Ebay :D
Last night, i bought 2 phone jacks, one black and one blue bow :D
OMG MY LIGHT JUST CAME ON!
After like 5 minutes of flickering!
Ahaaa yayyy!
Yeah, anyways, my other two phone jacks arrived yesterday, one panda and one plain one.
The panda one is SOOO cute, but i need superglue to fix it before i can use it, otherwise its just gonna fall apart.
And the plain ones actually really good, cos its hardly noticeable, but i can hang my phone charm off it, so I'm all happy!
If people copy me, imma kill em!
And just now, i bought a personalised phone case, AHAAA
Im sucha geek :/
I needa life ><
Talking of phones, reminds me of texts, and AS still hasn't texted me back :/
Ho humm... i dunno why i bother trying anymore, cos I'm not getting a reply ><
Ah well, can't dwell on such things!
I GOT WORK TO WORRY ABOUT ><
Oh yeah, after skyping my uncle, i called my cousin, Holly, to try and convince my cousin, Alex (Hollys brother) to come to America with us..
He said no.
I WAS LIKE WHAT?!
So i told him about the credit card thing and he wasn't even tempted?!
Erm.. sorry, but did he even hear what i said?!
Is he HUMAN?!
OMG o.O
He wants to stay at home playing his game the whole summer..
YOURE GOING TO TURN INTO A HOBBIT ALEX CHUNG!
But, all the more for me and Holly then!
Uber excited!
But yeah, i think imma brush my teeth and eat soon..
Kinda hungry :/
What to eat?
Imma be eating junk as usual.. AHHH WELLLL, needa eat less food, I'm sucha fat shit.
Pahaaaaaa oh well >:]
Over and OUTTTTTTTT!
♥
OHHHHAIII bloggyyy :)
I just texted baby good night, cos he's gonna be busy with his family, but imma quickly blog before i sleep!
I hadda good day for the most part today ^^
It was really cold outside :( Well, more windy than cold, but yeah!
Okai, annoyed because i can't put a :( at the end of the sentence, cos the html fudges up and its all like, you can't do this!
So i gotta type after a sad face..
ANYWAYS, yeah, some parts of my day were sad, but the rest was good, so imma okai with thattt :)
And i called my daddy after being sad and he comforted me as usual.
I really wanted to be home so i could have a cuddle from him, but meh, I'm so far away ><
I REALLY MISS HIM *CRIES*
I cannot WAIT to get home so i can see him and give him a massive hug!
I was meant to do work in the day time, but got kinda distracted..
I should really bunny hop to it tbh seeing as its all due in on wednesday :/
OH DEAR GOD, this is so stressful, but i can blame noone but myself for this procrastination!
Yeah, so today, i went sushi buffet with CT, and it was so great <3
At 5:30, we got the taxi to mechu, and then walked to woktastic.
ATE SO MUCH = YAYYYYYYYY!
Then we ate till about 7:15, and then got a taxi from mechu to town.
Then we watched American Pie!
Sucha funny film! But some points were sooo awkward hahaha, me and CT were just like, da fuq?
Then we gotta taxi home cos we got out and it was raining and cold and windy and we were like, 'WE AINT GETTING NO BUS!'
The taxi stank like BO.. :/
And CT was like, to the driver, we usually pay £9.
I usually say £7 T_T
WHAT IS THIS?!
But yeah! Me and cat had our girl date! WOOHOOOO!
Im sad that we didn't take any pictures today :(
BUT IT IS IN OUR MEMORIES AND HEARTS.
AND NOW ON BLOGSPOT :D
So i will remember it forever ^^
Imma sleep now bloggy, seeing as i told my baby i would!
And also cos i gotta wake up at 7:50 to Skype my uncle :/ Oh dear godddddd ><
Nighttt!
Over and OUTTTTTTTTTTT
♥