Saturday 30 June 2012

300612 ~ ♥

Ahhh was just about to play line runner..
Remember when we used to use a hand each and wed be the two different controls?
Like id be roll and youd be jump?
Dyu even remember that kinda stuff?!
Aishhhhh.


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Again im on my phone cos my cousins using my laptop!
I have to go to work soon anyways so whatever!
Just went korean shop with 2KL and bought snacks loool! ^^
No proper food for daphne! I bought something that i thought tasted good..
But apparently they taste different in HK :/
Thats so awksss ><"
I got called baby today by someone who wasnt TC :/
I hated it.. It just didnt feel right ><"
I really, really miss him..
Eurgh, just HOW could he just throw it all away just like that? *clicks*
How can he just be so happy?
Making new friends and totally forgetting my existence..
Fml I cba to go to work, another 6 hours of boredom, great..
I have a feeling my hairs gonna fall outta place half way through work..
Whatever T_T


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300612 ~ ♥

Cant believe its already the end of june!
Whats with all this time going by?
But then, how can it be going by so slowly?
Time just feels like it drags on nowadays..
Sorry i didnt have time to edit this morning babies!
I woke up with less time than i thought and i even forgot to take my medicines T_T
Currently im blogging on the bus so expect another ugly post for now!
I apologise!
I remember taking this bus with him quite a few times, wed hold hands and id lean on his shoulder and wed just talk.
In fact, it was like that in quite a few places.


Fml my hayfevers so shit, hes so lucky, hes in HK, you dont get hayfever there T_T
Omg Leehom Wangs song is so frigging touching, bare making me emosh!
But its fine, nandos with the cuz will cheer me up!
Chicken always does the job!
The traffic is ridiculous, and the bus was late..
White buses are so unreliable..
We should just have siew bas in england like in HK man!
I miss him mannn :(


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Another ugly post coming up guys!
Im so sorry!
Its cos i have some stuff on my mind whilst im lying here tryna sleep!
Once again, the birds are tweeting..
It seems i cant sleep before a decent time these days..
Guess our roles really have reversed..


Well.. I just watched a pho challenge on youtube!
I wanna try that!
Looks so goooddd!
I miss our dinner dates noww :(
We used to have pho together *sighss*
Why do i miss you so bad..?
Aishhh!
Nandos with HC tomorrow!
Yayyyyy! ^^
Il edit then when i wake up and if i have time before i meet up with the cuzzz!
Nightt bloggy!


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When will i be able to enjoy all the things we used to do together, without you? :/
Like, there are so many things that we taught each other, introduced each other to, and i dunno when I'm gonna be able to do those things without missing you or thinking about you..
So many things we experienced as 'new' together, and now.. whenever i do them, I'm just like, this isn't right without him, cos, well.. I've never done them without you before ><"
I just wanna know when it'll get better, and when il be whole again..


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I present to youuu;


Leehom Wangs: 'Still in Love with You' - 依然愛你



A flash a twinkle of a star
Traces our time together
Yet the center of my world
Still is you
A year a year and yet another
Time flies by with a blink of an eye
The only thing that never changes
Is constant change
I’m not how I was before
You’re not like you were either
But your smile in my eyes
Is still beautiful as ever
Time only moves forward
The clock only turns one way- clockwise
Don’t know how long we have left
So I want you to understand
I still love you, the only path I walk
I still cherish every minute, every moment of happiness
Your every breath, every movement, every expression
Till the very end, I will always
Still love you
I still love you, maybe it’s fate
After many years, no one can replace you
Those times together were the best times of my life
How can I forget all those memories
I still love you, the only path I walk
I still cherish every minute, every moment of happiness
Your every breath, every movement, every expression
Till the very end, I will always
Still love you
I will still love you in the next life time
Your every breath, every movement, every expression
Forever, I will… still love you
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一閃一閃亮晶晶
留下歲月的痕跡
我的世界的中心

依然還是你

一年一年又一年
飛逝僅在一轉眼
唯一永遠不改變
是不停地改變
我不像從前的自己
你也有點不像你
但在我眼中你的笑 
依然的美麗
日子只能往前走
一個方向順時鐘
不知道還有多久
所以要讓你懂
我依然愛你 就是 唯一的退路
我依然珍惜, 時時刻刻的幸福
你每個呼吸, 每一個動作, 每個表情
到最後, 一定會 
依然愛你
我不像從前的自己
你也有點不像你
但在我眼中你的笑 
依然的美麗
日子只能往前走
一個方向順時鐘
不知道還有多久
所以要讓你懂

我依然愛你 就是 唯一的退路
我依然珍惜, 時時刻刻的幸福
你每個呼吸, 每一個動作, 每個表情
到最後, 一定會 
依然愛你
我依然愛你, 或許是, 命中注定
多年之後 任何人都無法代替
那些時光是我這一輩子最美好的 
那些回憶, 依然無法忘記 
我依然愛你, 就是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜, 時時刻刻的幸福
你每個呼吸, 每一個動作, 每個表情
到最後 一定會 
依然愛你
你每個呼吸, 每一個動作, 每個表情
到永遠 一定會 
依然愛你
Damnnn, Leehom Wang KNOWSSSS.
He should be like my big brother or something! ^^
Had to make the font a bit bigger for the chinese lyrics, otherwise they're like illegible..
They were tiny ass characters..
As small as a piece of cheese for a mouse!

Wow these lyrics are honestly like an epitome of my feelings.
They are so amazing and its just beautiful!
Its sucha nice tune as well!
If you go onto my tumblr, I'm about to post a clip of how it sounds!
Im loving it soooo badly!
Thanks to WongFuProductions for letting me know about this =p
TC actually showed me this before, but i was with him and didnt focus on the video, i was too happy with him.
But as the days go by and i have nothing to do whatsoever, I've been on youtube watching WFPs videos a lot!
So this is where it caught my attention!

Its now the 20th of June.
Its been over a month.
A month which has not changed my feelings whatsoever.
I still as lost as before, and well, lets just say that there isn't a part of me that doesnt miss him.
I wish i could say the same about him for me..
But it looks like he's having the time of his life in HK and he's probably got his eye on some new girl now..
I feel like i meant nothing.
*sighs*
Forget it daphne.. youre nothing to him now.
Get that into your frigging thick brain.
Eurgh.

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Friday 29 June 2012

290612 ~ ♥

The BLEEP is going on?!
LOL, no seriously, what the poop is happening to my life?


My life feels like its constantly empty, even though I'm constantly busy, not in the most productive ways, but i am constantly feeling busy..
Tryna do stuff all the time so my minds kept distracted.
It isn't a great feeling, i won't lie to you bloggy!
It feels like utter shit if I'm honest!
BUT, never the less, i have to wait till i find my answers to know what to do.
I am, in a way, a broken, unfixable person.
I am so, so broken, like a shattered piece of glass.
And I'm unfixable in the way that, well, once that piece of glass shatters, you kinda needa replace it with a new one.
So hey, i guess I'm replaceable.
Whats the point of being in this world anyway?


I always think, were we having problems before?
But we weren't..
And even if we did, wed sort them out and the next time we saw each other, (which would've been about 2 weeks max after we saw each other last) it'd be amazing.
What happened?
*sighs*


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Tumblr always brings back memories to me ><"
Sometimes I'm not sure whether i should go on it because i know that there is so much that could make me sad, but then, part of it is like, these memories are good memories.
I dunno what to think anymore :/
Why did you go and leave me with so much, and then just leave full stop?


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290612 ~ ♥

I had THE strangest dream about you last night.
I was right, even in my dreams, I'm thinking of you.
Damnnn, all my posts recently are like, to 'you,'
Whats with all the sudden addressing to you? ><"
So anyways, in my dream, i called AB for a catch up, and she was cooking with her bf JR at uni?
Or somewhere..
Anyways, she texted me after showing me the conversation she had with you by text o.O
And like, you told her that you broke up with me cos you got 8 puppies from your dad as a present for your birthday (so I'm guessing this dream was in the future after your birthday) and you knew i was scared of puppies so you broke up with me..
Then i told you how stupid it was, and then we were kinda okai again..
Obviously this is not the real life reason, and it is much more complex than that, but well, even in my dream you were being difficult T_T
What is this?!


I have work tonight..
Still can't believe my uncle paid me £4.40 an hour..
I am back to being 16 and being underpaid.
GREAT STUFFFF!


And hurrah for this morning.. NOT T_T
So i didnt get any post yesterday yeah, so i was properly hoping like a hopeful hobo that i had post!
So i went to check the post, and i had some slip saying i have to go collect my post cos i wasn't in to pick it up?!
WHAT THE POOP?!
I was just asleep, i bet you didnt even ring the bell or knock on the door!
You mean people!
Now i either have to trek all the way to collect some post, or i have to pay for it to be delivered to me again.
What kinda atrocity is this man?!
SO ANNOYED!


So, questions for today:
Why are postmen such pooheads?
When will i be able to get over you?
Do i wanna get over you?
When will i be able to stop missing you?
And why dyu make this so hard on me? ><"


Rawr, its a hard life for those who don't have what they want!


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290612 ~ ♥

Damnn its 1:38 and im already in bed..
It feels weird sleeping on my own cos last night i practically didnt sleep, and whilst i did, i was with KL!
Im lying here thinking of all the possibilities and just all this shit thats filling up my brain :/
Well, again, im on my phone, so i guess this means another ugly looking post till i wake up and edit it!
Even just before i sleep, youre on my mind..
Then when im asleep, youre in my dreams.
Will there ever be a time where you arent on my mind?
Cos its pretty hard on me.
Baby i miss you..


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290612 ~ ♥

I really don't know how much more of this i can take..
I really did think i was good enough you know?
And to me, you were more than good enough.
But maybe i was wrong, maybe i wasn't good enough.
'I can't do us anymore' you said.
I guess i owe you an apology for making it so hard to be with me.
Im sorry that it was so difficult.
I never intended for it to be hard on you, all i wanted was for you to be happy.
If i made it hard on you, then maybe you're better off and happier without me in your life.
You told me that you were so happy with me, but then a week later, you tell me those hurtful things.
I don't know what I'm supposed to think, i can't deal with this.
My hearts about to cave in.


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Thursday 28 June 2012

280612 ~ ♥

Wow.. You really don't care do you?
You don't give a crap about me anymore do you?
There you are making all your new friends and bringing friends to events and stuff..
And here i am, heart broken over you.
I know life isn't fair, but this is just unfair to a new level.
You're all happy and whole hearted, and me, well, I'm the opposite.
AISHHHHHHH.


Onto happier newssss!
I went round to 2KLs yesterday ^^
At around 3:30, they picked me up from mine, we went to ktown till about 4 something, and then we went home ^^
KL#1 went out to eat with her cousin but me and KL#2 had our own jok gworng man chan ^^




HAI MAI HO LENG LEH?! ^^
Loool chicken kievs and korean ramen?
Match made in heaven or what..?!


Then we kinda just watched tvb dramas and then we made our cupcake/muffins ^^



Aren't they beautiful and cute?! :D

And then KL#1 came home and we had a nerf gun challenge, check me out okai?:


And then we started watching the OC, well me and KL#1 did cos KL#2 went to go sleep cos she had school today!
So like, she went to sleep at around 4, and thats when we started watching the OC!
Then we stopped watching half way through and we had some massive dmc that involved a lotta crying and a lotta sharing.
And a lotta bumming me out cos i had to relive all those frigging memories that i had with TC whilst i fished em out of a hidden place in my brain to tell her when she asked.
And she read through my texts to TC, and it just kinda suckedddd!
Cos there were many questions to be asked, and a lot of stuff for me to think ARGH.
Aishhh, sad times for me man..
Then after that, we started watching the OC again, and it got to about 9am, and i was like, ohmygod i have to sleep cos i had work today..
So then we went to bed and fell asleep around 10..
And we woke up at 2:30..
We went downstairs and we had some tiff about me not eating lunch or whatever T_T
So then i had to eat some brioche cos they're like my mothers T_T
LOOOL!
And then we watched some jackie chan film with bare violence wtf :/
Then i went home at around 4 and got ready for work!
Got to work around 5 and it was DEADDDDD asssssss.
Then i got home around 10:05 and now here i am!
2KL had a nap today T_T
Whilst i was just slaving through my day..
So i have been a soldier and just not had much sleep at all!
YAY ME!
And weird thing is, I'm still not tired..

Ahhh anyway, i had so much fun with them ^^
My beautiful best friends <3


P.s. DAMNNNN a girls gotta scroll far down fb to find a heart D=

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Currently at work.
It is hot and stuffy and there are no customers.
Why am i even here?!
So this is why until i get home, this font is gonba be ugly as and i wont have my favourite arial!
Im glad i have this job though, cos it means im keeping busy.
I think if i didnt have this job, id just be overthinking at home.. And trust me, i overthink enough as it is.
Plus i get paid so i cant complain!


As i go through my life, even now when im at work, day by day, there are two sentences that repeat themselves constantly throughout my head.
'I cant do us anymore, this is the end for us.'
No matter what im doing, or where i am, these two sentences always manage to pop into my head.
You have no idea how much it hurts, knowing that someone you love doesnt love you back.
Or maybe you do have an idea.. I dunno.
Just to go from 'i love you' to that.. Its quite hard for me to believe and accept.
Maybe, just maybe, given time il get over it and those sentences wont awkwardly pop up anymore, but until then, i have do many battles that i have to win with my brain.
Its a constant fight to keep you outta my head.. Dyu know that?
Why have you made this so hard for me?!
Was i not good enough for you?
Did i not make you happy?
Rarrr this is killing me..


Well anyways, for now, imma leave it as this and blog more when i get home in about 20 minutes!
Cos i have stuffs to catch up with you on mr bloggy!
I would proof read on here cos typing onna phone is more prone to making mistakes, in comparison to typing on my lappy laptop!
But its a trek just to move the screen about, so yeah!
I cant even leave a heart for now :/ So if you read this before i get home and edit some stuff, im sorry this is ugly for now!
Lots of love to make up for it! ^^


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Tuesday 26 June 2012

260612 ~ ♥

I wanna be able to be a part of our kisses again..
I miss you :(


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260612 ~ ♥

I dunno what I'm gonna say to you when i finally talk to you :/
Ottokaeyo ><"


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Omgshhhh, i honestly think i ate a spider last night in my sleep :/
Like half way through the night, i wake up with some tickle in my throat and next thing i know, I'm coughing my head off, like and its still all tickly!
Kill me nowwww D=
So i drank some water and like, 10 minutes later i was okai again, but i woke up with some bad cough and now I'm just like all coughed out :(
*cries*
This is notta good time for me :(
I WANNA GO TO AMERICA NOWWW.
ONE MONTH.


Waaaaa, i miss you.
Booo :(


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Thought id make a change and make my titles different!
I also edited my blog layout again and now everything is great and fine and dandy!
I made the post title smaller, the blog archive a different name, and i changed all the fonts to arial just because its my favourite font!
Im such a layout/template technician >:]
Check me out being all different and doing new things.
AHAAA.
Onna blog T_T
Why not with my life? Fml T_T


Oopsiessss, i forgot to feed the fish ><"
Im as forgetful as they are! D=
I gotta 3 second memory peopleeee!
But i have now fed them :)
Gotta remember to do that every morning ><"
*sighs*
Exactly a month until America!
Time goes by so slowly when you have nothing to do and everything in your life sucks :/
It also goes slowly when you're ill and you have noone to look after you.
It also goes slowly when you have no life and your mum and dad aren't in this country.
It also goes slowly when you get your heart broken.
And what makes it worse is that the person who broke your heart doesnt even care.
So basically, my life is going by as slow as a slow tortoise atm..


Damnnn i feel like crap right noww, just as well imma sleep anyways cos i gotta wake up at 12..
Waaaa, i hate this feeling, i feel so mehhh :(
You have no idea what you've done and how you've made me feel do you TC?
I mustve really hurt you in our past lives or something.. For you to do this to me..
And it sucks extra amounts that i still love you so, so much.
Even after all the shitty stuff you've done.
Great, my life sucks.


Time to sleep and forget!
... Until tomorrow


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260612 ♥ x


This was us.
At least, i thought it was.
We were the 'only once in a rare million do the same two people need each other.'
You lied when you said i was your one and only and that i was your everything.


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