Monday 28 September 2009

28.09.09 <3 x

Havent posted for a few days now...
In Critical Thinking, i thought about stuff
Arguing about law really wasnt getting into my head
I was just in my own world.
That always seems to be the easiest place to be.

What if i never really forgot it all?
What if i never really stopped?
What if i never really smiled about it?
What if i never really knew?
What if i am over it?
What if i am now happy?
What if i can smile about it?
What if i realise that its all over?
What if...

Dyu ever get that?
When you have loads of questions...
That you know even you yourself cant answer, let alone asking others for answers, not that theyd answer you anyway
Might as well not ask tbh...

I come across as such a confident person.
Loud, happy, smiling, carefree, laughing
But how deep does that all go?
I know i am all those things, otherwise i wouldnt go being them
But there are times when im not so loud, not so happy, and all the rest of it.

When you build up as a person whos all these things to others, when your not, they immediately wonder, and judge
Whereas if you arent normally this way, they couldnt care less and probably wouldnt notice.
Im described as selfless...
There are days when i need a break.

Of course, i love being so happy, but who doesnt have off days?
All the characteristics that i have when around other people, are ways of putting others before me.
I want them to have happy vibes around them.
If i didnt give a shit about you, i wouldnt even bother tryna hide my feelings
Allow burdening you with my problems.
But then if your like my best mates, i always spill out to you...

And on this subject ~~
Why are people so hot and cold?
One minute, theyll be talking to you like everything is bloody okai
Then the next, when somebody else is there, they dont even say a word to you.
Whats that all about?

I really dont get people
It really pisses me off.
And how, suddenly, they can jst have this "i dont give a shit" and "i dont really wanna talk to you" attitude?
What is that all about?!
OMGGGGGG
ARGHHHH
Okai, im okai :D

Over and OUTTTT

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